John Lennon said to me, it's cleanup time...

Rihanna told me to take a gun, put it on my head and pull the trigger. Life is like Russian Roulette. But then it's such a relief at first when I realized I'm no longer a slave to my 9-to-5 job. But after awhile, it's getting more depressing when December is ending. 2009, what have I achieved?

Of course, Oasis said Don't Look Back In Anger. I never get angry with my past decisions. It's just the wishing that I have right now. Yes, I wish I can turn back time and commit the opposite but I can't. The future is what I can change but I think I'm on the right path to achieve the life I wanted. I'm afraid I tell you. In three weeks I'm gonna try to migrate to KL and find a job there, if everything goes ahead as planned. I cannot tell you what am I gonna do if I failed again. For me life is only once, and we should make it as perfect as possible. So far 2009 didn't do me much good. So my only resolution in 2010 is to start my career. That's all. I'm not gonna listed what I'm gonna achieved in 2010. No pressure should be put on my shoulder when there should be only one thing that I should accomplished...

John Lennon said (Just Like) Starting Over. It is for me. A fresh start and I certainly don't wanna look back and grief. We should be strong and never quits easily. When you quit, you letting go a chance in your life. Sometime that chance might never come back. I experienced it several times. Chances I wish I didn't let go but now it's never gonna come back. So now, any chances that come my way I will embrace it with grace and of course thorough thinking is needed when I'm ready to let go...

The Beatles recorded With A Little Help From My Friends. Friends is definitely one key components in my life. Where would I be without them? Have you ever think how you would be alive without them by your side? I can't. Looking back, my friends are the best. They with me when I need them. How could I pay back all of you?...

Cheryl Cole said those 3 Words save her life. When can I say the same? In fact I'm quite embarrassed when one of my childhood friends asking me who is my current girlfriend. It was easy to find the answer for that question but it was a lie. It's not I cannot find someone. It's not I don't have time. It's only myself. I'm still not ready with this kind of commitment. Perhaps after my career is alive and kicking, those 3 words will save my life too...

Britney told me that Someday (I Will Understand). Circumstances in my life consumes much time to either erase them or getting over with. For some of you moving on is easy as ABC, like what The Jackson 5 sang. It was like ABC for me, but with continuation until XYZ. So much time and energy needed to move on. Until that day arrives, perhaps I will understand...

Bob Dylan sang that The Times They Are A-Changing. Things no longer like I've imagined it would be. They are changing. What we should do when they become something you no longer want it to be? It's adapt or die...

Ini biasa...

Aku kembali menganggur. Ape jadi? Aku dah gaduh ngan bos aku la. Sebenarnya dari hari pertama aku keja dah aku tak tahan ngan perangai dia ni. Hipokrit la aku kalu aku angguk je tiap kali mamat tu menyalahkan aku atas menda-menda yang kecik. Aku memang selalu cakap depan-depan dan teramat la jarang aku senbunyikan apa yang aku rasa. Tapi untuk masa depan aku terpaksa diam dan angguk je kalu kena marah walaupun aku tak tau. Hari Khamis lepas aku dah tak tahan. Terus-terang je aku cakap ngan dier, pastu angkat beg dan blah. Tapi kira aku keje la aritu sebab aku blah pun dah pukul 5 lebih.

Setiap orang ada had. Untuk semua benda. Jadi tahap sabar aku dah sampai. Bole kira lama jugakla aku tahan. Dekat 2 bulan. Haha, mungkin korang rasa pendek je masa tu tapi hanya Allah je tau seksa keja ni. Lagi satu sebab aku tahan kerana aku nak buktikan yang orang Melayu bole keje kat tahap tinggi. Kat ofis tu berapa ekor la sangat Melayu, apatah lagi carta organisasi. Melayu bole kata ramai keja kuli je. Jadi aku rasa aku adalah salah sorang wakil orang Melayu kat ofis tu.

Tapi apakan daya, aku memang tak bahagia keja kat situ. Semuanya sebab ex-boss aku la. Kerana dia sorang aku kene berenti. Berbaloi ke? Mestila, sebab dengan dia la aku nak mengadap tiap-tiap hari. Aku memang cemburu tengok orang lain seronok keja. Aku ni tak abis-abis kene bambu. Naik tensen la kalu hari-hari kena.

Aku tau susah cari keje sekarang ni tapi nak wat cemane, dari kene marah selalu baik aku cari keje lain. Aku tak kisah ape orang nak cakap, sebab diorang tak rasa. Nak cakap aku bodo berenti ke, tak bersyukur ke lantak hangpa la. Ingat aku kisah?? Hahaha...buat masa sekarang ni kene lagi praktis interview depan cermin. Korang yang tak lagi bekerja, enjoy la hidup korang.

Buat sementara ni, aku pun enjoy la.