John Lennon said to me, it's cleanup time...

Rihanna told me to take a gun, put it on my head and pull the trigger. Life is like Russian Roulette. But then it's such a relief at first when I realized I'm no longer a slave to my 9-to-5 job. But after awhile, it's getting more depressing when December is ending. 2009, what have I achieved?

Of course, Oasis said Don't Look Back In Anger. I never get angry with my past decisions. It's just the wishing that I have right now. Yes, I wish I can turn back time and commit the opposite but I can't. The future is what I can change but I think I'm on the right path to achieve the life I wanted. I'm afraid I tell you. In three weeks I'm gonna try to migrate to KL and find a job there, if everything goes ahead as planned. I cannot tell you what am I gonna do if I failed again. For me life is only once, and we should make it as perfect as possible. So far 2009 didn't do me much good. So my only resolution in 2010 is to start my career. That's all. I'm not gonna listed what I'm gonna achieved in 2010. No pressure should be put on my shoulder when there should be only one thing that I should accomplished...

John Lennon said (Just Like) Starting Over. It is for me. A fresh start and I certainly don't wanna look back and grief. We should be strong and never quits easily. When you quit, you letting go a chance in your life. Sometime that chance might never come back. I experienced it several times. Chances I wish I didn't let go but now it's never gonna come back. So now, any chances that come my way I will embrace it with grace and of course thorough thinking is needed when I'm ready to let go...

The Beatles recorded With A Little Help From My Friends. Friends is definitely one key components in my life. Where would I be without them? Have you ever think how you would be alive without them by your side? I can't. Looking back, my friends are the best. They with me when I need them. How could I pay back all of you?...

Cheryl Cole said those 3 Words save her life. When can I say the same? In fact I'm quite embarrassed when one of my childhood friends asking me who is my current girlfriend. It was easy to find the answer for that question but it was a lie. It's not I cannot find someone. It's not I don't have time. It's only myself. I'm still not ready with this kind of commitment. Perhaps after my career is alive and kicking, those 3 words will save my life too...

Britney told me that Someday (I Will Understand). Circumstances in my life consumes much time to either erase them or getting over with. For some of you moving on is easy as ABC, like what The Jackson 5 sang. It was like ABC for me, but with continuation until XYZ. So much time and energy needed to move on. Until that day arrives, perhaps I will understand...

Bob Dylan sang that The Times They Are A-Changing. Things no longer like I've imagined it would be. They are changing. What we should do when they become something you no longer want it to be? It's adapt or die...

Ini biasa...

Aku kembali menganggur. Ape jadi? Aku dah gaduh ngan bos aku la. Sebenarnya dari hari pertama aku keja dah aku tak tahan ngan perangai dia ni. Hipokrit la aku kalu aku angguk je tiap kali mamat tu menyalahkan aku atas menda-menda yang kecik. Aku memang selalu cakap depan-depan dan teramat la jarang aku senbunyikan apa yang aku rasa. Tapi untuk masa depan aku terpaksa diam dan angguk je kalu kena marah walaupun aku tak tau. Hari Khamis lepas aku dah tak tahan. Terus-terang je aku cakap ngan dier, pastu angkat beg dan blah. Tapi kira aku keje la aritu sebab aku blah pun dah pukul 5 lebih.

Setiap orang ada had. Untuk semua benda. Jadi tahap sabar aku dah sampai. Bole kira lama jugakla aku tahan. Dekat 2 bulan. Haha, mungkin korang rasa pendek je masa tu tapi hanya Allah je tau seksa keja ni. Lagi satu sebab aku tahan kerana aku nak buktikan yang orang Melayu bole keje kat tahap tinggi. Kat ofis tu berapa ekor la sangat Melayu, apatah lagi carta organisasi. Melayu bole kata ramai keja kuli je. Jadi aku rasa aku adalah salah sorang wakil orang Melayu kat ofis tu.

Tapi apakan daya, aku memang tak bahagia keja kat situ. Semuanya sebab ex-boss aku la. Kerana dia sorang aku kene berenti. Berbaloi ke? Mestila, sebab dengan dia la aku nak mengadap tiap-tiap hari. Aku memang cemburu tengok orang lain seronok keja. Aku ni tak abis-abis kene bambu. Naik tensen la kalu hari-hari kena.

Aku tau susah cari keje sekarang ni tapi nak wat cemane, dari kene marah selalu baik aku cari keje lain. Aku tak kisah ape orang nak cakap, sebab diorang tak rasa. Nak cakap aku bodo berenti ke, tak bersyukur ke lantak hangpa la. Ingat aku kisah?? Hahaha...buat masa sekarang ni kene lagi praktis interview depan cermin. Korang yang tak lagi bekerja, enjoy la hidup korang.

Buat sementara ni, aku pun enjoy la.

Is it the story, or sex?

A year ago I watched a movie called Twilight. Groundbreaking? No. Captivating? No. Killer storyline? Little. I remember I wasn't mesmerized in that 90 minutes. I was busy looking at girls drooling over Edward Cullen. I watched a lot of movies and that movie by far never would have succeeded. But it was everywhere. Can I watch E! without them mentioning it? Can I go to the bookstores without seeing their cut-outs? It's a clean no.

New Moon gonna come out in a few days and I dunno if I actually excited over it. Call me hypocrite, but the reason why I'm mentioning it in the past posts is because it's a pop culture phenomenon, and I want all of you to experience it. So maybe 15 or 20 years from now yours and my kids will asking question about how big Twilight and we can answer to them, specifically. It's like when I was asking my dad how big was the movie Grease in the 70's. I was reading the third book, Eclipse and half way through it was the same story all over again. It's Bella as the center of attention, again. I ended up didn't buy the book (I got it first as e-book). So why Twilight franchise is so successful?

It was sex all along. Or lust that is. The market for the books is teenage girls. So perfect leading man is needed. In the book Edward portrayed as the perfect guy ever. In the movie Robert Pattison filled that role. Not kinda Edward in my mind, but he's close enough to make horny girls screaming like they were competing in MTV Scream Queen reality show. So the same formula with New Moon film? You betcha.

This time Edward is no longer hot (or ironically ice cold) so Jacob is the new Edward. This time not only the leading man got the looks, but killer bods as well. Perfect combo. And again teenage girls have someone to fill their hearts until the next movie come out. I saw the trailer and I bet it will be like the original movie. Modified, shortened and lame acting. But that didn't stop anything related to Twilight hit #1 in every charts (the soundtrack managed to hit #1 in US).

So people what are you paying for? A quality movie or just to fill your lust? Either way is fine with me, at least know what you are paying for. So don't complain when your boyfriend angry with you drooling all over the Quiletes pack.

Six packs to be exact.

Yea, can't wait...

PARENTAL ADVISORY: THIS POST CONTAINS SARCASM TO CAR OWNERS/USERS AND KL CITIZENS. READING THIS POST WILL MAKE YOU IRRITATE AND WILL MAKE YOU BANGING YOUR TABLE WITH YOUR FISTS.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

For those who taking public transport, this post means nothing to you. As for car users, this post probably means something to you. But for motorists, this post gonna make you nodding to (almost) every sentences I'm about to write (or type).

I spent little time of my life driving. I got driving license, but the car is what I lacked. Mostly what I see is that driving is for the spoiled or rich fellas. They need to have roof over their head eventhough it's outside and pure air-con is the only way to make them feel alive. Haih, for me I will only drive if my dad rembat my motobike when I'm asleep or raining.

No, this post is not about why I hate driving. It's the road that makes me wanna express my feelings. I live in KL for 3 months and only God knows how pissed I am for the awful road condition there. I lived in Sentul area and it was like lots of asteroid landed of the roads. Going through that road everyday made me thinking about Armageddon, Deep Impact etc. It's mostly jammed everywhere and everytime plus with the patchy road conditions it's like icing on the cake. On the opposite side that is. Dooms day probably come early. When I returned home to Penang, it's still happening. It's everywhere.

Car users probably don't feel the deep and nasty holes too much, since four-wheeled absorb impact better than two-wheeled vehicle. Argh, I can declare that this country have the most terrible road condition ever. When the road will appear like they just been dropped from heaven? Election day.

Yes, that time politicians will appear out of nowhere and talking like they are gods. I'm good, the best, people first and all those bullshit keeps on coming. Well during this time they don't just talk, but walk the walk. Roads are all modified and we can finally see development. But after that, people have to wait 5 years until the next repair. How hypocrite.

My frens, you guys mostly have the most experience when applying for student loans. You need authentication for all your certificates etc and you have been turned down. How suck was that? My dad had been there. He came home in anger and furiously cursing that particular guy. Haha, and I heard most stories from you guys too. The conclusion, this is Malaysia. Hypocrites and money make this country go round.

I can't wait for election day. No that I'm gonna vote, it's just when I laugh to the politicians when they talking like crazy, the development finally moving and I can ignored the news on TV. Who rule the nation? What's the difference? They are all the same. Blabbering idiots with cash signs written on their forehead.

It's cold....

Today,
I feel the rain,
It's cold,
As ice,
Is my life cold as rain?

Today,
I feel the anger,
It's hot,
As fire,
Is my passion hot as fire?

Today,
I feel the frustration,
It's dark,
As Twilight: New Moon novel,
Is my path dark as New Moon novel?

Erm...wait til the movie is out! Haha!!

Aku tak bermaksud macam tu...

Aduh! Kekadang kenapa bila kita tak bermaksud nak sakitkan hati orang lain tapi tetap terjadi jugak? Boleh ke kita berfikir lepas tu bercakap? Bagi aku susah sangat nak wat camtu. Aku selalu cakap lepas dan pastu mesti ada yang terasa. Kalu korang kenal aku dah lama mesti korang tau memang aku camtu. Aku tak bermaksud nak sakiti sesapa. Perkataan aku takda makna terselindung. Tapi tetap terjadi. Macam tadi...

Tadi kat front office adela dorang abang ngan akak ni tengah guna PC. Akak ni tak reti sangat pasal I.T ni jadi aku pun ajar la skit-skit. So along the way aku pun pesan la:

Korang bila guna pendrive tolong scan dulu ye...

Akak ni mengaku tak tau tapi abang tu mengaku tau. Jadi aku suruh la dia tunjuk kat aku. Bila aku suruh camtu muka dia trus ubah sambil tunjuk cemana nak scan pendrive. Daripada riak muka dia aku dah tau dia macam bengang sebab aku suruh tunjuk kat aku cemana nak scan pendrive. Kiranya macam aku ni tak percaya la dia tau scan. Sensitif. Korang tau kan ape aku try nak cakap kat sini.

Manusia ni senang nak baca. Daripada riak muka dah tau apa orang tu rasa. Jadi masa balik tadi aku dah rasa bersalah. Aku cuma nak uji sama ada abang tu betul tau ke tak sebab menda ni serius. Kalu pendrive main cucuk pastu kena virus aku jugak kena clean. Bertambah la keja. Bukannya aku pandang rendah kat abang tu. Tu je maksud aku. Tapi abang tu dah amik serius. Hadui, susah la nak jaga hati orang ni. Kalu tak bercakap, dicop sombong. Kalu cakap banyak terkeluar skit ayat sat lagi ada yang terasa.

Cemana ni? Aku nak wat kawan, bukan nak wat lawan. Aku tak mau la pening-pening kepala bila dah keja ni. Ni masalah bole elak. Tapi cemana? Aku rasa aku dah buat ramai orang terasa. Cuma diorang tak cakap ja. Tapi aku tau.

Cuma masa ja bole menentukan. Tapi aku cuba la untuk kurangkan bercakap. Macam omputih cakap:

If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all

Yea, camtula...

Mana la aku tau...ko tau ke?

Sekarang ni baru aku tau yang keja I.T department ni takla sebagus yang aku sangka. Boleh kata sume orang kat tempat keja aku ni expect yang kami daripada I.T department ni tau segalanya tentang PC ataupun mesin fotostat. Macam tempat kerja baru aku ni, memang la aku baru mula keja jadi macam-macam menda yang aku kena blaja. Tapi manusia ni memang pentingkan diri sendiri, selalu tunjuk jari ja kat orang lain. Aku ni budak I.T jadi kalu apa-apa je berkaitan PC atau teknologi mesti diorang jangka yang aku ni bole selesaikan masalah diorang. Tak adil...

Semalam bila projektor tak boleh nak detect signal daripada laptop, aku pulak yang kene bambu. Apek bodoh yang datang bagi training kat F&B department cakap camni yang bikin aku panas...

Your I.T department guy should know this la...

Hotak kau!! Korang bayangkan masa aku tengah godek projektor sial tu apek tu asyik ulang ayat yang sama. Nape ko tak diam je and let me do my work??! Korang tengok la, kalu ikutkan ye betul aku I.T guy but bukanlah aku tau sume. Aku perlukan masa untuk sort something out. Sabar le kejap. Ni dah la tak sabar, dok bising-bising pulak. Budak I.T tak semestinya tau sume pasal tech ni. Cube korang tanye budak I.T kalu jumpe sekor dua (atau tanya diri sendiri, you know who you are) try test tanya apa beza VGA ngan XGA resolution. Ala, aku tau dah...ramai tak tau...

Sebab tu aku pelik bila keja kat tempat camni. Sume orang macam bodo giler sampai tak reti nak godek sendiri atau bagi masa untuk aku selesaikan sesuatu masalah. Ni tak abis-abis bising pastu tak sabar. Ni lagi satu test untuk tengok korang faham tak situasi aku.

Kita sume rakyat Malaysia kan? Then jawab soklan-soklan ni tanpa menggunakan bantuan (including Google):

a) Bape panjang jambatan Pulau Pinang?
b) Ape permintaan Puteri Gunung Ledang bila Sultan Mahmud gatai nak kawen ngan dia?
c) KOMTAR kat Penang adalah bangunan ke brapa tertinggi di donia nih??

Kalu korang tak dapat jawab satu pun korang tak boleh digelar rakyat Malaysia. Yela kan, takkan kita rakyat tak tau pasal negara sendiri kan? Haa, masa ni la baru korang tau yang walaupun kita ni Malaysian tak semestinya kita tau segalanya pasal Malaysia ni. Jadi sama la ngan situasi aku, cuma manusia ni tak sedar menda ni. Bodoh btol...

Buat masa ni aku just tahan jela dengan kebodohan manusia nih. Biarkan mereka dengan kebodohan mereka. Tunggu masa ja aku nak educate diorang ni...