Smile, it confuses people...

Mo money mo problems

2011-08-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

I promised myself to save RM10K and only then I will get myself a car. I've survived a year in KL without a car and it doesn't make any sense if I get one now. But when you can afford the monthly payment, it become almost unavoidable.

But I broke that promise last Wednesday when I placed an order for a car. No matter what car it is, it's still give me goosebumps when thinking about the monthly payment that I'm stuck with for the next 10 years.

My goal would probably living this life with no debt, but I know that without debt, your life would be suck. You can't afford everything in cash, so loaning is the way to colour your life a little bit. But that colour could be dimmed one since you end up with less money.

It's damn right what they say, when you have more money does not make you happier. But I know this gotta happen since I am an adult and I can do this responsibility. Hard but I gotta do it.

Last but not least, happy fasting everyone!

Yes tuan

2011-07-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

It's getting harder in my workplace. I should be super-thankful when I had it, but I didn't.

A question for you. When you work, did you really working all the way? I mean, say you work for 9 hours, so you fully utilized (I'm not sure utilized is the correct word) the working hours? Of course you gonna have some "me-time". Browsing newspapers, personal emails or heck, even Facebook (you lucky twerps) during the "me-time" right? However, it's a privilege I'm no longer have.

My new boss gone Guantanamo lockdown on my team. Can you imagine working on the graveyard shift without anything left to do? No sleeping, movie screening or even Facebook. I'm scratching my head on what to do. I suppose to be working, I know but come on, my job is monitoring the company's system etc. so ya think I'm gonna stare at the computer screen for 8 hours straight? Fuck you.

I'm sure he will get the point that we sooo free at night, so he can think about dumping more shittiness to us. Dude, what are you doing? I really don't understand the way bosses think. They don't care bout anybody else but their asses while their employees breaking their backbone for the company.

I really don't get it. It makes me hate him more and more. Is there any nice/good/adequate bosses out there? Adopt me please!!

I'm sick

2011-07-13T04:58:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna talk about Bersih 2.0 here. You and I know what happened. I told you that Malaysia is turning into China. Bersih 2.0 gathering became China's 1989 Tiananmen Square protests, except this time only one casualty recorded and the "law enforcers" done nothing, u gotta YouTube it. Moving on....

Y'all know I quit smoking and it's been hard. Quitting something that had become your daily routine will severely affects your life. My body oddly feeling more sick every day. Wait the minute, doesn't quit smoking makes you healthier?

I guess not. According to my friend the body already used to nicotine and when nicotine gone, that's when it'll gone haywire. Really? Let's see, nicotine is bad, but when you ditch it, you feel sick? No sense to me whatsoever.

Sure, I'll have occasional puff once in a while but honestly my craving for nicotine fix are lessen each day. Good news after all.

Except I'm sick, and there's no drug for it, only nicotine.

Damn.

#Interlude 11:45AM

2011-07-02T11:52:00.003+08:00

# July 9th

I'll be working afternoon shift. My office is just few hundred meters away from Merdeka Square. Can I reach my office when Bersih 2.0 is unleashed?

50,000 people was there in 2007. 2011? Much, much more...

Boss!! Kasi cuti lah!!!

When fair election is demanded, meaning there's no democracy.

Quoting my idol the late John Lennon:

"POWER TO THE PEOPLE, RIGHT ON!! "

#Interlude 3:07AM

2011-06-17T03:13:00.001+08:00

Block all you want bitches!!

The freedom of digital age is nowhere restricted.

The solution for this so-called copyright problem:

Lower the goddamn DVD/CD/Blu-ray prices. An original CD cost RM40++ is better spent on the all-you-can-eat buffet table.

Am I in China now? Looks like the Great Firewall of China is coming here after all. Democracy? What the fuck is that??

Communism is the way to go baby...I also took the words "general election" and "1Malaysia" out of my vocab. After all, do they really care about us?

Capitalism...a wannabe story

2011-06-09T01:18:00.001+08:00

If you know me long enough, you well aware that I rarely pay attention to Malaysian music scene. Personal reasons aside, however sometimes it's good to pay attention to local music scene. So now, it's time to take a sneak peek inside when new artist Prema Yin hot new video causing quite a stir when it was released two weeks ago.

When you try to break the sex taboo within our community you'll soon pay the price. The director Gambit Saifullah (strange name, mind) facing a huge backlash and Shah Jaszle ended in hot seat, again. The video is nothing compared to, say Madonna Justify My Love or Shakira La Tortura but it is something for local scene.

International acts are totally different from local since they do not have moral obligations to the people. They come from economic atmosphere called capitalism, where you can sell anything that sells. Sex sells, drug sells, violence sells. So when local acts try to become a capitalist, you simply can't, point blank.We have moral obligations to community, whether you fancy or not.

Islamic+capitalism economic system practiced here so anything causing moral defect is a definite no-no. But let's face the fact here, does the video do anything harm to the people responsible? Hardly any.

I never heard of Prema Yin so it turned my head and actually listened to her song in the video. It was pretty good. Kinda hard to swallow but I admit it. It shows that when you breaking a taboo, it's actually a good thing in drawing attention to yourself.

Of course I would definitely disagree in sex-engaging behavior in mainstream media, but do we really notice when something is plain and boring? They just trying to get our attention and it is definitely works. They took extreme risque for their action and believe me, people soon will forget whatever they did.

If you don't like what you see, turn away. Simple as that. Moral defect or not, they ultimately choose what they want to do. We can just criticize as always or try to understand what they trying to say.

Free food!!

2011-06-06T12:32:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for the gap between my posts. Wanna know why? Suddenly I got a surge on getting a TV. A big-ass screen TV. So yeah, I was wondering around a lot and haven't got much time posting anything new. So yesterday I attended one of my old friend wedding in Puchong. It was a bit scary (I dunno anyone but the groom) and commitment issues (I got some of that too).

But with good food (FREE food always good food) and lot to catch up between us it's almost criminal time goes by so fast.

Anyway congratulations to Faris a.k.a Mawi and his bride and I wish them all the best. And yes, for my dad, stop asking when I'm gonna get married. I'm bored with that.

Interlude #3:50pm

2011-05-26T15:52:00.004+08:00

I hate Rebecca Black's Friday but Glee cast make it sound so cool. The lyrics still intolerable. Can you say Glee make everything sounds so current? From Prince's Kiss to mash-up of classic Thriller and Heads Will Roll, they're making hits after hits. Best of all, none of them are theirs.

# Friday still the worst song of the year.

Interlude #3:55am

2011-05-25T03:58:00.004+08:00

A text received @ 01300 by my lil bro Amirul (da one showing his teeth)

Bro, aku dapat dekan!!!!

Great. Back to sleep. ZZzzz...

Day 2: #quitter always wins

2011-05-24T17:41:00.003+08:00

Dear cigarette(s),

This is an open letter to you. The day you came to my life a year ago it was a mistake. That day you still cost RM6++ for a pack of 16. Now you cost RM10 for a pack of 20. Even I clearly know I was burning money by getting you it always fun when you're around. The picture as gloomy as my mood...

This morning without you is just a pain. Something is missing, I told myself. It was a sad morning. Working night shift is lonesome. No more puffing with coffee in my hand, looking towards Maybank Tower. Nicotine and caffeine fix can't be together no more.

It's 48 hours and counting. I love you but this relationship must stop. This is a bad romance, you know that. I'm not letting myself go so goodbye to you. You sure tempting me again and again but enough. I'm walking away from this toxic relationship. You are my Bobby Brown.

It was fun when you're around. But good things (is it?) must come to an end. I'm glad it ends, just forward is the way to go, and you ain't comin' with me.

Sincerely missing you like crazy,
demetrius02

UPDATE 11:51 PM: Shit, I'm struggling...

Day 1: The road to smoke-free

2011-05-23T21:29:00.001+08:00

Oh, it's been a year since I started smoking. I know, that something you can really proud of. I never counted how much money I spent for that thing, but one thing for sure everytime I bought it I feel guilty. That guilty don't last long however, 'cos a year had past and I'm still smoking.

My buddy Alex told me me I gotta stop or will forever be damned (OK, not really was he said) but everyone got their thing. Bad habits that they know they gotta stop. Letting ourselves go is the common symptoms of a human being. Like Alex himself he's an online gamer. Can he just stop cold-turkey? I doubt that, but it's not fair when his habit never gonna cost him his life. My habit however can cause lung cancer, smelly breath (you got this when you roll outta bed too), yellow teeth (again, excessive coffee also causing this) etc.

I told Alex that I'm gonna stop smoking by new year's eve (2011) and he didn't believe me point blank. Yes, he was right. Not only I'm a smoker but a liar as well. Damn.

After several trial, I've say it is the time to end this insanity. I'm putting my foot down and no negotiations after that. The deal has been made.

I'm quitting smoking y'all. It's been 18 hours since my last puff and it's not good. I'm struggling to hold on. Shit. Pray for me. Peace.

No...later

2011-05-17T22:52:00.001+08:00

Look at this picture. What is it? A BlackBerry Curve. I remember my previous job handles a lot of this gadget. If you have a BB in my previous office you are very important and you don't really have a life. Trust me, when I'm handling you a BB you don't want to take it. Period.

The point of having a BB in the first place is for emailing, as most companies reply so much on emails rather than calls. But now college students own one. I mean, what so great about this thing? Smaller screen, annoying QWERTY keypad (once you go QWERTY, you never go back) and far less function as let's say a Nokia.

This evening I granted my brother some moolah to get this BB. I actually owe him but it's devastating when the money goes to this thing. He already own a Nokia ExpressMusic but still, Nokia probably sound cheap. I got into text argument about this and it's his money, why the hell I should care? But what I don't understand is the feeling of wanting more. I have some, but why?

Break it down y'all:

a) Guys, you know this. You have a girl who loves you and want to get married to you. But even marriage does not stop us committing an/many affair(s). Who can answer that? I can't. Can you? Girls, stop that grinning, you too.

b) Keep up with the Joneses. No, not the overly-exposed Kardashians. Kapish? It means keeping up with everyone, material-wise. Your friend own a car, you gotta have one as well, but better. Handphones, houses, furniture you name it. Everything money can buy.

c) Career speak. I don't really fancy my current job now but it's way better than my previous. One year I promised myself, it will be new career path. Better money and benefits of course.

A few examples. But I keep thinking, why? For material-wise, can't we live frugally? Speaking of that, frugal is what I am now. I rarely eat out, as I learned to cook. I eat a lot (sure, hard to believe) so cooking is a no-brainer. If I cook, I can cook quite a lot for myself. It's not that good, but for survivalism I'm on it.

Clothes? Haha, not in my financial book. My mum get mad sometimes when I show up in old outfit. She can't believe that I'm working and very rarely buy new clothes. Mom, I don't need new clothes to be happy. Be frugal, that's OK.

Restraining yourself from committing one of seven deadliest sin (greed) is good. It shows you don't need lots of stuff to be happy. I am, sort of. I'm too shallow to reach Buddha's serenity.

I am...Sasha Fierce.

No seriously,

I am superficial, I am shallow, I am human.

BlackBerry, I'm gonna get you later.

Is GaGa losing her edge?

2011-05-16T14:04:00.004+08:00

Last February I've got the chance to watch the Grammy live and the reason to wake up a little bit early was to catch what in the world GaGa would wear this time. After countless of ordinary outfit by other celebrity GaGa finally arrives, in an egg (or a vessel according to her). So, the world missed what she put on for the red carpet this year. What a shame. I was wondering was she naked or pretend to be a baby inside that vessel?

Nobody knows for sure but when she debuted her single Born This Way (dubbed as the best album of the decade by herself) it was plain and simple. The song leaked 2 days earlier and when I first listened I thought I downloaded a demo instead of ready-to-air single. What the hell happened to her?

Honestly the world expected something more from her. I do. When she debuted in the music scene I was thinking this is the true successor of Madonna. Well Britney is out of the picture now with her life gone haywire (a few comeback after that resolved this problem) and Christina Aguilera tanked her last album. Well I spoke too soon...

Music critics commented first single Born This Way just a rip-off of Madonna's Express Yourself and Vogue. I couldn't agree more. While she defended the song as original, her second single Judas tanked on charts as well. The single never reach Top 5 (it's ridiculous for this Mother Monster) and new promotional single already out titled Edge of Glory. U.K seems to agree as none of the singles reach #1 there, ironically her debut single Just Dance peaked at #1 weeks before reaching the penthouse in the U.S.

The album is not even out but more songs already released and so far a little praise for all of them. Edge of Glory sounded like 80's band Tears for Fears would sing and Judas just part 2 of Bad Romance. I am disappointed and wondering where the hell the old GaGa gone to?

The Fame was brilliant and the follow up EP Fame Monster was even better. Telephone was one of the best collaboration with Kill Bill-esque video to boot as well. After spending some time on the road for her Monster Ball tour, which become the highest-grossing tour for new artist maybe Mother Monster let herself go with craziness like her persona, overly designed and poorly executed.

The cover is another thing. It looks cheap and plain awkward. GaGa born as a motorcycle? Does experimenting with Photoshop resulted such a hideous cover? They run out of budget to hire good photographer for an album cover? Nobody knows. I'm not the only one hurt my vision with this image, apparently many are.

The album will drop next week (May 23rd) and no doubt it will debut on top of the chart, but will it stay? With no reliable singles the album just gonna slip down the chart just like the singles. As a consumer I'm not convinced just being a fan required me to get the album. I am a fan of her last studio works. As for current masterpiece, it's just crap.

Now whos' next?

2011-05-15T19:58:00.005+08:00

With Osama is now dead, who could be the next person disturbing the peace? You might probably say the whole al-Qaeda but what really rockin' KL now is the anonymous acid splasher. It's been going since last year and suprisingly the police still haven't got their hands on this acid splasher. Hmm...probably they're busy with some video issues (I need not fill you in for that).

I'm working in shifts and there are times that I need to work during graveyard shifts. I tell you, graveyard shift is fun. I'm sure you can't really put up with that but do you realize that when there are no people, meaning there will be no problem? It's pure heaven. But now with this acid guy running loose my journey to my office start to become sort of a challenge.

I know that only girls and ladies should be aware, but I don't know if the splasher might change his splashing policy (I'm damn sure he has some) and start looking for male victim. But in order to understand this human, we should list down his possible motive. Urm, these are mine:

a) He got wayyy too much acid supply and wants to get rid of them...on humans.

b) He wanted to test whether his acid supply works. Imagine this:

KUALA LUMPUR: The acid splasher strikes again this morning on his (insert numbering here) victim. The victim was walking toward her car and splashed with corrosive liquid.

The splasher: Oh, my acid works! Thank goodness. Now next bottle to try...

c) He's tired with news on the TV and newspaper. He wanted to be the headline rather than some hotel-made pornographic materials.

d) He watched SAW VI and wanted to try also. Maybe later he will use a reverse bear trap on some drug addict and caught a few Alongs to test how much limbs they willing to give (please watch SAW I and VI if you have no idea what I'm talking about).

Pretty good huh? Well, he probably reading my blog now and I bet he's nodding in agreement. I'm not a psycho per se but this is the world. People are their worst enemy. I can't see splashing acid to strangers is fun but I think it is fun when you can do it and get away with it.

My advice to this guy, dude, what the hell are you doing? There are a lot of problem in this world already, why the hell you become one of it? I think our PM should contact President Obama on how they located Osama like last time. Oh, it might take a decade to find this splasher and they might found some porns in his compound. Hey, if Osama accused of watching porn this guy probably heading the same way. And guess what, maybe some hotel-made porn are there too. So who recorded/upload the video is no longer a mystery.

Two birds with one stone. THAT'S EXCELLENT!!

Betul ke kau puasa?

2010-08-16T06:29:00.004+08:00

Tup-tup dah bape hari dah ni kita puase. Kau ade rasa nak raya tak? Aku bila dah besa nih tak best dah raya. Yelah, duit raya memang sah tak dapat, pastu nak bukak posa kene la beli sindri, sebab mak dok jauh...(mode sedey di waktu pagi). OK, post kali nie sebab aku nak tanye diri sendiri ngan kau orang yang tengah membaca nehh...kau rasa ko posa ke? Ramai orang ingat yang posa ni just tahan lapa jek, yang lain tetap buat tanpa rasa bersalah.

Macam aku pegi shopping raya semalam (peh awal giler aku gi shopping yer) ade skit fashion show kat Sungei Wang Plaza tuh. Sekali baju dier bikini daaa...Dah tu takkan ko nak tengok sambil tutup mata kot. Aku jujur okeh, takat nak tengok sikit-sikit tu tak payah la. Dier da wat depan mata, aku pun stay la dalam 15 minit (takleh lama-lama, sebab nak bukak posa time tu). Agak-agak bape dah pahala aku lesap? Hahaha, kalu timbang dalam kati mahupun gram adalah teramat sikit la. Camni nak masuk syurga?

Akak tempat keje aku pun macam biase jek. Ade sorang nie kalu main komen takdenye nak tapis-tapis. Sekali klua mau wat hati panas. Bulan posa ke, bulan raya mahupun bulan Deepavali dier tak peduli, komen tetap pedih. Ade sekali tu aku kena komen sebab baju aku, hati da panas, tunggu time je nak fire tapi pikir dier dah tua buat pekak dah la. Tapi itula soalnye, ko puase ade nilai ke?

Cuba korang pikir, bulan posa ni ade korang wat perubahan kat diri korang? Maal Hijrah dah lepas, biler lagi nak berubah? Rutin kite sama ja kan? Takde pun nak kurang ke, macam bertambah lagi ade la.

Lepas baca post ni, kau rasa nak sambung puasa ke? Takde nilai Bedah, gi je bedal lauk pagi tadi bawah tudung saji tuh. Po po po!!

Three's a crowd

2010-08-14T08:03:00.005+08:00

Obviously people hate to walk. Admit it, it sucks. Moving your legs back and forth are just not cool. But climbing those endless concrete to heaven a.k.a stairs are the worst. Hold on, perhaps you don't really remember what stairs look like. That beautiful invention was left behind when a magic aluminum/metal (yeah I don't really know the material) called elevator completely erased stairs from people's vocabulary. Your kids certainly know those Up & Down bottom better rather than whose invented the light bulb. Sadly, I've noticed even myself are drawn into extreme laziness when this metal box being put beside my energy consumption. My energy are just too precious for stairs.

I lived in PJ for 4 months and I can almost see the angels when my apartment was on 13th floor (heck, I can see the devils too from there). I remember when both of the elevators did not work, it was an excruciating period. I'm already having a hard time gaining weight, let alone climbing 13 sets of stairs to reach my house. Some people called it exercise, but for me it was a total disaster. Since people don't use it often, the lonely stairs become the place for vomits and trash dumping. Jeez, the journey to my room is no longer a journey to heaven, but more like getting through Buletin Utama with crappy political propaganda before really moving on to worthy news.

But now I live in Shah Alam and the condition is better than in PJ, but the scenario is pretty much the same. People even dare to take the elevator even to 3rd floor, which for me either showcase an extreme allergies to stairs or they just don't know stairs existed. Some of them even brought they motorcycle into the elevator. Wow, I wonder what could be so priceless about those two-wheeled vehicle. It's not new, let alone highly stolen models. Ah, maybe they need to hug their during dreamy hours. But, what about their wives? Heck, all three of them can snuggle each other I think. Three's a crowd rules is definitely not applicable.

But still, for me 7th floor is not that high compared to unlucky number 13 so the conflict about elevator or stairs is well discussed in my head when I reach my apartment. Truthfully, the metal box wins over a set of concrete blocks but we will see when say, a fire breaks in the apartment; which will I choose?

Elevators? Never heard of 'em..

STAIRS, YOU'RE MY LIFE!!!

Hiatus da abis...

2010-07-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

10 things you need to know about this author:

a) Full-time smoker dah (thanks keje banyak, stress, debt...aku hargai banyak-banyak)

b) Stay in Shah Alam now (bubye PJ)

c) Keje I.T exec (nama je I.T exec, tapi keje macam I.T manager dah...sume letak atas pale aku)

d) Single trang-tang-tang lagik (ntahla sampai bila)

e) Hard-disk da nak pnoh (download la keja aku...xreti nak benti)

g) Rindu kat Penang

h) Miss wedding kawan lama aku si Ana (aku kat Penang time tu, sorry banyak-banyak)

i) Ada 3 lighter (asyik lupa time klua, rokok bawak tapi lighter takder)

j) Benci Lisa Gan ngan Ler Wei Fong (minah HR ngan Finance kat kompeni aku)

k) Akan update blog more often...

Tunggu....

Aku rasa dah cukup kot....

2010-03-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

Aku nak mengaku nih. Aku adalah seorang perokok. Aku gerenti ramai tak caya apa yang aku tulih nih. Tak, aku masih waras. Tak la, aku tak mabok la. Haih. Yeee betul aku perokok. Tapi ape pulak kategorinye? Aku ni part-timer jek i.e perokok sosial/suka-suka/tunjuk best/ apa-apa jelah kau nak cakap. Mak aku kat kampung nasib baik tak reti pakai tenet, sebab tu aku mengaku secara terbuka nih. Tapi nape ye aku merokok? Aku terpelajar beb, English tiptop, Spanish bole tahan (kau mimpi ape neh?), tapi awat aku sedut jugak cancer stick (lain kategori dari vertical stick yang Lady GaGa nyanyi tuh) nih?

Aku ni orang selalu cakap muka aku ni muka baik/innocent. Betul ke? Sebenarnya dari sekolah lagi orang da stat label camtu. Yelah, aku nih tak kelua malam, dok umah je. Pastu rokok tu haram kat umah dulu. Jadi kawan-kawan aku memang gerenti tak ajak aku join pape pun diorang wat sebab aku ni anak mak. Aku training skang ni pun bila orang tengok aku isap rokok suma tanya ko isap rokok ke? Jadi label tu dah default melekat walaupun kat orang yang aku baru kenal. So aku da bosan ngan label tu. I can bad too la weyyyy...so ngan isap rokok ni aku rasa diri aku diterima ngan bebudak laki lain. Bila lepak aku rasa awkward sangat bila sume isap rokok aku je tak. Macam pelik tau. Jadi at least ngan rokok aku ada sumthin in common la...gettiiit??

Tapi logiknya otak aku tau isap rokok ni tak best. Aku rasa tak sedap badan la, mengantuk la, memacam la. Effect dier bukan best pun. Macam haram jadah adalaaaa...lagi satu gadis-gadis mesti da stat pandang serong kat aku. Wahai gadis-gadis sekalian, kau nak ke laki perokok? Tak yah jawab aku pun tau.

Kat atas ni gamba kotak rokok aku baru beli tadi kat 7e. Abis dekat RM10 gak. Bole wat duit makan kan? Tapi aku beli jugak menda haram ni. Adoilaaa...menyesal pun ade nih. Aku selalu pau rokok orang je, takde lagi beli sendiri.

So geng, kawan korang ni dah terpesong skit la. Maafkan aku ye. InsyaAllah aku akan berubah. Sebab rokok ni aku try nak ubah diri aku tapi kalu jadi lagi teruk watpe kan?

Doakan aku bebeh...

Keta Malaysia jugak cambest....

2010-03-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

Aku terus-terang memang tak pandai bawak keta. Aku memang minat keta tapi nak menbawaknya menbuatkan aku pikir panjang sampai aku sendiri give up. Aku sememangnya tak berani nak bawak keta lagi-lagi ada manusia lain yang mempertaruhkan nyawa diorang ngan aku...haha. Lagi satu time drive bapak aku mesti jadi macam coach bolasepak, tak abis-abis komen pastu mengejut bagi arahan. Signal tak bagi la, tak tengok rear view mirror la, last-last aku sendiri naik fed-up. Senang aku naik moto ja, takde orang nak terpekik kat aku.

So bile dah keje nih aku ade la gak pikir nak pakai keta satu hari nanti. Yela, keta tu adalah satu simbol idop ko stabil. Cemane nak ngorat gadis kalu naik moto jek? Haha, gadis mestila nak laki yang stabil idopnye betul? Haa, angguk ye. Tapi nak beli keta ape? Pakcik aku penah cakap, bile ko da ade duit beli keta luar negara macam Toyota ke, Honda ke. Memang aku anggap tu macam cabaran sebab cuma ade 2 orang je pakai keta selain keta Malaysia, pakcik aku lagi satu ngan sepupu aku, Vios ngan Sentra. So target aku nak beli Kia Forte. Keta tu memang lawa. Tapi kan...

Kau ade denga tak Toyota panggil balik hampir 10 juta keta dier sebab macam-macam masalah. Salah satu prob dier pedal minyak bole tersekat kat karpet jadi keta kau tak bole la nak benti, terus je sampai ko langgar pokok atau menda-menda depan kau. Memang thrill kalu aku dapat keta camtu. Cukup time ko jadi serial killer. Gerun? Kau main Grand Theft Auto takde takut pulak ye?

Pastu tadi aku terbaca lagi General Motors (GM) panggey balik 1.3 juta keta sebab steering problem. Cukup 15k batu ko berjalan, steering jadi susah nak kawal, lagi bila bawak slow. Dah lagi satu masalah. Lagi Toyota pun tarik balik keta sebab salur minyak bocor. Aduii...

Ko penah denga kan Proton pun ade gak masalah camni, tapi satu model jela...Gen 2. Tak sampai sebulan ko pakai, dah tercabut itu ini. Tapi tu dulu la, skang takde dah tak salah aku. Jadi, keta luar ni best sangat ke? Ikutkan cuma Toyota jek yang ade masalah major sampai 10 juta keta. Lain-lain tu skit je. Dan sekarang ni aku sedar yang keta Malaysia gak yang best. Murah, pastu takde masalah sangat. Kalu ade keta Toyota skang ni, aku pegi trade in keta Saga SE jek...haha...berangan kau neh...

Ari ni Selasa kan? Esok Rabu...betul la tu...

Buat malu kaum Hawa jek...

2010-02-20T21:20:00.003+08:00

Baru tadi bestfren aku call sebab ada betina try nak rosakkan hubungan dier ngan boipren dier. Adoila, nape ye betina dalam donia ni tak bole nak cari jantan lain? Tau la dah nak kiamat (pikirkan yob!!) tapi kan ade ramai lagi laki dalam donia ni. Bukan sume dah pupus. Ni tak, dok wat gatai faraj (bahasa sopan) kat laki yang dah berpunya. Aku ni laki, mestila kalu ade pompuan lain mau kat aku semestinya aku akan rasa sempoi sebab menjadi rebutan. Tapi ikutkan la, ape nak jadi cinta hati aku tu? Memang aku akan tinggalkan terus pompuan gatai tu. Takde nilai pun. Sampah pun lagi baik dari kau, at least dier tak kacau rumahtangga orang.

Tahun lepas aku ade gak experience sorang betina gatai gila lagi desperate nak kat aku. Tapi agak-agakla la wei, jumpa tak penah, pastu gamba haram tak penah bagi. Ingat aku ni bole ke kapel buta camtu? Last-last jumpa gak profile dier kat Frenster. Patutla pemalu, badan macam tong dram, pastu perangai macam setan. Dah aku tak mau kat dia pi kaco pulak boyfren kawan aku. Yang si jantan ni pulak gatai jugak, pi layan si tong dram ni. Kalu gaduh kena tindih trus leper aku cakap. Haha.

Aku ade terjumpa blog betina ni kat Internet. Orang dah tuka pi Blogspot dia pun sebok nak ikut. Post terbaru dier cakap camni...ehem...quote...

(Mood~menyampah sangat dengan perempuan-perempuan murahan yang maki hamun bila kita call boyfriend mereka.)

Apa bodo sangat badak ooi? Dah hang pi kacau boyfren orang sapa soh?? Ingat girlfren depa tu tunggul kayu nak biar steamroll macam hang amik boyfren depa?? Hang tu yang murahan, gedik kat laki orang. Tak sedar diri...pastu ending blog dier...

So, kalau kamu rasa boyfriend kamu tu memang BAIK, sila fikirkan semula.

p/s: sejak bila I pandai buat double meaning ni? Wah! Bangga ^___^

Bangga ye dapat rosakkan relationship orang lain? Syabas, Akhirat kelak sila ingat ye nama pompuan-pompuan yang hang dah rosakkan rumahtangga depa. Di Padang Mashyar yang luas tu nanti hang kena mintak ampun ngan depa. Kalu dah kemaruk nak berlaki pegi la Lorong Haji Taib hulur faraj kau. Bagi diorang terjah. Dah kembung perut cari memana pak turut, jadi laki hang. Pastu bolela kau menarik nafas lega, satu tugas dah lepas. Next!!

Ape ek, oh nak dapat MyVi SE ye...ape susah pak turut ade kan....

I'm tired...shouldn't you?

2010-02-18T20:22:00.004+08:00

When American Idol debuted in 2002, no one in Asia have any idea what it was. In fact, the idea was from Pop Idol, which started the Idol craze worldwide. I was the listener of UK Top 40 chart aired on hitz.fm every Saturday from 6pm to 10pm so I was aware of the Pop Idol when Will Young announced the winner of the series. Me too had no idea about the show except who won it. When Kelly Clarkson debuted her single it was hard to market her without mentioning "American Idol winner".

After it conquered the world and becomes the pop culture phenomenon. For me just after 3-4 years watching it, it was getting lamer each year. I was asking myself, this is just a shortcut way to be famous. When a lot of talents pops at the same time, it's overwhelming. Plus, their music doesn't really fresh or great. Take Kris Allen for instance, he decided to cover The Script's Live Like We're Dying. The song never really convinced me he is the winner of AI. What about Taylor Hicks? Dropped by his label when his album never really took off. When season 9 debuted on TV weeks ago, still a lot of talents wanna make it big with this shortcut. I am a music fan and know that AI or any talent shows these days is not really a golden ticket to success.

Not just in US, but here in Malaysia as well winning talent show or be in a talent show does not really put you in the entertainment map. It's bullshit. Take Mawi for instance. When his life went public, I can see his face annoyed when been bombarded with questions. Then, where is he? I dunno. Then there's Daniel, won the Malaysian Idol and gone like the wind. But come to think of it, Mr. Simon Cowell is the one who's smiling when ratings go up every year. You see,

Ratings = millions of moolah.

But people still go crazy over those talent shows. Why? You never really support them right? I had an argument with my friends when I said that they never really support the artist they like, especially local acts. They never bought their albums, never attended their gigs and just by downloading songs FREE of the Net, it is considered support to them. Hell no. I know that I don't listen to Malay songs, but at least I don't download their songs off the Internet. For me if they are good, I will support them in proper way. Not just by mouth, but with action as well. Buy their CDs, attending gigs etc.

So the conclusion is, I am tired with all those shows. The talents on the show is just wasted overnight because when the new season coming, we can' even remember the last season winner, save the contestants. And if you love the music that the artists make, please support them in a good way. In a way that they can benefit from. I stopped watching Idol 4 years ago, just the audition shows amuses me, everytime.

That's talent. Stupid talent that is...

I never know how it feels like...

2010-02-17T22:49:00.002+08:00

I have lost my stuff in the past. Keys, money, you name it. In fact my rims been stolen 2 weeks ago, and it doesn't feel good. The first thing that pop-up in my head was "Why me?". It was hard to believe because hours before it was there. Then boom! it's gone. I am sucker in letting things go. Never my best forte. First when losing stuff, I will mad at myself. Then I'll mad at the person who took it away. Lastly I try to move on with those two things still clinging in my head. Hard it is.

When I heard that one of my childhood friends lost her mother recently, I was speechless. I can't really imagine what will happen to me if that occurred to myself. Look everyone, we can only have one mum (biological mum that is) in a lifetime. And still they can be gone the next day.

I was mad at my mum when I was young. I am a kid and never really listen to what they would say. I was rebellious. When I want certain things and she said no, I will throw tantrums. Once I even think about running away from home because I think when they say no to me meaning that they never really love me. I think they would say yes if they love me, everytime. But when I am old enough to understand, I feel sorry for my parents. My attitude wasn't really helping. I truly understand when I looked at my birth certificate says that my father worked as a fisherman. How much a fisherman make these days? Not much. So when I look at my younger brothers, I say "how lucky they are" because they didn't experience life like I did. They can have whatever they want without even trying. My mum just spent nearly 2k to get my brother a laptop. When I was in college, I have to use a 5 year old desktop. How unfair.

But now my parents especially my mum is definitely precious. I am living in KL now and even though they are miles away, I call them everyday. I call them just to remind them they still have a son who lives far away and still they are locked deep in his heart.

To Fauziah a.k.a Ojah, my cousin and also my childhood friend, I feel sorry for your lost. Just remember she has gone to a better place and live must go on. Never ever feel alone because your family and friends are with you along the way. Be strong. She is looking at you from above, smiling that her daughter is able to continue this life without her.

I never know how hard is it for you to swallow it but we all will experience the same thing....losing our love one...

Sori dik...hari ni Sabtu, tak gheti-gheti lagi?

2010-02-15T11:28:00.004+08:00

Kalu aku kat Penang hari Isnin adalah hari untuk dok umah. Awat? Dah hari tu la banyak kedai kat Penang tak kasi beg plastik kalu kau beli barang sebab "No Plastic Bag" setiap Isnin. Penah sekali tu aku beli toiletries berlambak pastu pas baya akak tu selamba tolak sume barang-barang tu kat aku. Kutip la engkau satu-satu. Abisla satu Gurney Plaza nampak kau beli shampuu Rejoice, pewangi ketiak etc. Segan ya amat.

Kalu kat Selangor ni pulak hari dier ari Sabtu. Memang hari tu ramai la yang klua shopping complex angkut barang masing-masing macam baru je rompak kedai. Kalu IKEA lagi ganaz, haram tak bagi plastik dah tak kire la hari ape pun kau beli barang. Memang sah kau kene angkut lampu/tong sampah/hanger etc pakai bare hands jek.

OKla, memang aku faham sangat nape diorang ni kedekut nak mampos untuk kasi satu beg plastik pun. Beg plastik ni susah nak kene lupus. Satu je beg plastik amik masa 100 tahun untuk lupus. Kau pun belum tentu hidup sampai 100 tahun kan? Tapi la kan, ade satu mende aku nak share ngan korang.

Macam biasala, klik gamba sebelah kiri ni. Tengok bebetul. Ni resit satu hyperstore i.e besaaaa punyeee!!! kat Selangor ni. (Note: Name of the store has been erased to avoid any lawsuit against me, I got no lawyer y'all). Korang bole nampak yang aku beli satu barang je tapi resit kasi aku sampai 8 inci. Ni memang resit paling panjang aku penah dapat untuk 1 barang. Kedai buku B****** pemenang kedua bagi resit panjang giler. Aku pegi beli barang hari Sabtu jadi memang sah la takde plastik tapi nape resit dier panjang berjela? Aku bace resit tu memang penuh ngan info yang tak perlu macam Harge kami bla bla harga pesaing bla bla...tu je dah amik dekat 2 inci. Cakap nak save environment, tapi gune ketas macam nak rak. Tak ke korang rasa hypermarket ni tetap membazir sumber alam? Apedaaa...

Aku penah tengok kat Midvalley (yes y'all, kedai ni ade gak kat Midvalley...hint2) orang shopping barang groceries macam esok nak kiamat jadi korang bole la agak kan bape panjang resit dier dapat + info tak perlu. Aku estimate paling panjang aku tengok dalam 2-3 meter untuk resit je. Perghh, memang pokok tak bole nak selamat la.

Jadi y'all, kalu bole bawakla beg sendiri gi shopping. Pastu gi kedai yang tak bazirkan resource. Lagipun hypermarket ni bukan murah sangat pun. Aku lagi suka pegi Tesco. Eh, ade advertisement pulak. Tesco tak baya aku ye. Pree ad je ni, dan lagi barang dier memang murah skit.

To Qas, please do contact me. Pronto.

Happy weekdays!!

Can I f*** you today? Erm, jap nak pikir....

2010-02-05T20:53:00.004+08:00

I can't believe my eyes when I read the controversial stories regarding sodomy charges of you-know-who. The first day filled with HUGE bombshells from you-know-who's-been-sodomized. But honestly, this is where public media can't really hide the exact phrase that you-know-who's-been-sodomized said.

Adiela yang kini berada di U.K sila rojok akhbar di Tenet ye...I'm just worried you probably lost right now...hehe...

It's really freaking me out to write about this entry since the police probably a loyal follower of my blog.

Dah cukup takat ni...takut aku...

(Nama telah ditapis bagi mengelakkan aku you-know-what-will-happen)

Ade telepon canggih, sekodeng la...

2010-02-01T15:37:00.004+08:00

Macam biasala aku kalu dah klua mestila cuci mata, bukan takat klua mata tengok lantai je. Lagi-lagi dah dok KL ni, lagi macam-macam perangai manusia kite bole nengok. Ini antara salah satu gamba yang dapat aku share ngan korang. Cuba klik pastu tengok bebetul. Ape pendapat korang? Haa, bagi aku agak berat sebelah la. Nape wanita bole cuci toilet laki tapi laki tak bole cuci toilet pompuan? Aku dapat gamba ni bile time tengok muvi kat Midvalley semalam. Hampir sume toilet ade pelekat ni, termasuk la jiran sebelah The Gardens.

Jangan coba nak cakap kalu laki jaga toilet pompuan kang kene sekodeng pompuan-pompuan yang gune toilet tu. Aku nak kencing pun segan kalu akak cleaner tu selamba mop tepi aku. Mane tau akak tu cuci mata ke, atau ade hidden kamera ke, mau jadi bahan porno kat Tenet. Tapi itula yang menjadi persoalan, gadis cuci toilet laki, sedangkan laki pun ade malu jugak. Dah la bowl kucil tu besa lagi terbuka, kalu laki sama laki tak kisah la, ni ade pompuan pulak. Segan beb.

Ha, ni lagi satu gamba menarik. Klik pastu perati bebetul. Kat satu simpang area Kelana Jaya ada papan tanda ni. Kau nak pegi Lebuhraya Persekutuan a.k.a Federal Highway? Kiri ke kanan beb? Tu yang buat aku garu kepala yang tak gatal (ayat novel huh!). Cemana aku nak pegi ek? Tak ke korang rasa 1 papan tanda dah cukup? Ni wat aku pening la.

Aku memang bergantung kat papan tanda kalu nak pegi memana pun. Yelah Google Map pun kekadang tak bole harap. Arahan susah nak paham, pastu jalan sume nak lalu highway je. Kopak la aku. Pegi sana-sini pastu nak hulur duit kat akak tol pulak. Huii, baik aku cari sendiri. Tapi papan tanda punye pasal, duit tetap kene hulur, kat kaunter stesen minyak...asyik sesat je...

Mohon maaf...

2010-01-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

Aku mohon maaf sebab manalah tau post aku ni menghentam sesiapa. Tapi memang aku nak komplen tentang beberapa isu:

a) Tukang bawak teksi kat KL ni memang takde adab ye? Main tuka lorong takde pulak nak bagi signal kiri kanan. Pastu nak bawak laju manjang macam nak kejar bola dari masuk gol sendiri. Tau la korang tau jalan satu KL ni, tak bermakna signal korang tu dah takde makna kat manusia lain. Kalu aku eksiden dek korang gila makan jalan tau la nasib korang. Warning!!

b) Aku ni selalu sesat. Minggu lepas pegi interview terjah Google Map jap nak tengok jalan mane aku patot amik. Tapi arahan dier amatla sengal. Orang panggil New Klang Village Expressway a.k.a NKVE tapi dier tulih Melayu plak jadi aku konfius. Arahan dalam English tapi part tu dia tulih Melayu pehal? Jenuh aku mencari Lebuhraya Baru Lembah Klang...tulih NKVE suda...

c) Line Celcom wat sial plak 2-3 ari ni. Nak call takleh, nak pakai 3G wat tenet pun takleh. Hadui, dah naik gila aku tak tau apa nak dibikin. Nak cek Facebook pun pakai henpon apa barang? Kecik adoyai...sakit mato den...haa dah cakap Negori nih, memang sah nak gila...

d) Interview dah pegi, bile diorang nak call amik aku keje? Tak tertahan aku menunggu ni...

Tu je aku nak komplen, ko ape citer plak Bedah?? Cepat aku nak denga pulak...

I don't watch news...what happened darl?

2010-01-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Wow, churches being attacked. If people involved there will be real-life MMOPRG. Half-Life in real life!!! Awesome. Nevertheless, I don't think it's necessary to fill anything for you. The single word can cause chaos in the entire nation. Bizarre. You wanna know what I think about all these silly incidents? Hear this...

Maybe 13th May 1969 will happen again. Who knows, with this kind of tension and so many extremists running around somebody might end up dead. But it is such irony when we are heading towards 2020, the year deemed to be advanced by Tun Dr. Mahathir. We are going backwards everyone. Violence seems to be the only way to solve problems. But hey everybody doing it. George W. Bush said so. Osama said so. It's a fashion really. In vogue, gracefully.

But being vogue doesn't mean you have to be stupid all the way. Only idiots would commit such barbarian acts. Those churches did not publish the newspaper contains that word. None of the priests nor follower published it. Why should they pay the high price? But still, words can be a deadly weapon or a powerful peace baton. Why don't we educated Muslims do the latter?

This is a disease that we have to cure, pronto. Taking it too much and put rational aside can destroy this nation. Brain supposed to be working to solve this issue. But looks like it's on the OFF mode for now. But wait...perhaps it's never gonna turn back on. Remember Beyoncé concert? Never happened...

For uneducated Muslims, please go educate yourself on how to stand up for our religion. Perhaps you never understood any of the content of our Holy al-Quran. You giving us a bad name over here. Other religion will think Islam is violence and overly sensitive. Don't you think it will cause long-term problems? Oh wait, you can't really think, can you?

This can be solved with discussion and understanding. If the court decide it's legal, then try other approach. Mind that the Arabic word is commonly used by Christians to describe God in such countries as Egypt, Syria and Indonesia, the world's largest Muslim nation. So if they can tolerate, why can't us? I must say I'm not agree with the word can be used freely but still if others can settle everything without violence involved then why must we?

This is why I hate watching news or reading newspapers. It makes me sick and worried about our very small nation. I think I should worry about my myself. Let them settle it.

Politicians that is...where art thou? It's your job bebeh!!!!

John Lennon said to me, it's cleanup time...

2009-12-22T07:49:00.004+08:00

Rihanna told me to take a gun, put it on my head and pull the trigger. Life is like Russian Roulette. But then it's such a relief at first when I realized I'm no longer a slave to my 9-to-5 job. But after awhile, it's getting more depressing when December is ending. 2009, what have I achieved?

Of course, Oasis said Don't Look Back In Anger. I never get angry with my past decisions. It's just the wishing that I have right now. Yes, I wish I can turn back time and commit the opposite but I can't. The future is what I can change but I think I'm on the right path to achieve the life I wanted. I'm afraid I tell you. In three weeks I'm gonna try to migrate to KL and find a job there, if everything goes ahead as planned. I cannot tell you what am I gonna do if I failed again. For me life is only once, and we should make it as perfect as possible. So far 2009 didn't do me much good. So my only resolution in 2010 is to start my career. That's all. I'm not gonna listed what I'm gonna achieved in 2010. No pressure should be put on my shoulder when there should be only one thing that I should accomplished...

John Lennon said (Just Like) Starting Over. It is for me. A fresh start and I certainly don't wanna look back and grief. We should be strong and never quits easily. When you quit, you letting go a chance in your life. Sometime that chance might never come back. I experienced it several times. Chances I wish I didn't let go but now it's never gonna come back. So now, any chances that come my way I will embrace it with grace and of course thorough thinking is needed when I'm ready to let go...

The Beatles recorded With A Little Help From My Friends. Friends is definitely one key components in my life. Where would I be without them? Have you ever think how you would be alive without them by your side? I can't. Looking back, my friends are the best. They with me when I need them. How could I pay back all of you?...

Cheryl Cole said those 3 Words save her life. When can I say the same? In fact I'm quite embarrassed when one of my childhood friends asking me who is my current girlfriend. It was easy to find the answer for that question but it was a lie. It's not I cannot find someone. It's not I don't have time. It's only myself. I'm still not ready with this kind of commitment. Perhaps after my career is alive and kicking, those 3 words will save my life too...

Britney told me that Someday (I Will Understand). Circumstances in my life consumes much time to either erase them or getting over with. For some of you moving on is easy as ABC, like what The Jackson 5 sang. It was like ABC for me, but with continuation until XYZ. So much time and energy needed to move on. Until that day arrives, perhaps I will understand...

Bob Dylan sang that The Times They Are A-Changing. Things no longer like I've imagined it would be. They are changing. What we should do when they become something you no longer want it to be? It's adapt or die...

Ini biasa...

2009-12-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

Aku kembali menganggur. Ape jadi? Aku dah gaduh ngan bos aku la. Sebenarnya dari hari pertama aku keja dah aku tak tahan ngan perangai dia ni. Hipokrit la aku kalu aku angguk je tiap kali mamat tu menyalahkan aku atas menda-menda yang kecik. Aku memang selalu cakap depan-depan dan teramat la jarang aku senbunyikan apa yang aku rasa. Tapi untuk masa depan aku terpaksa diam dan angguk je kalu kena marah walaupun aku tak tau. Hari Khamis lepas aku dah tak tahan. Terus-terang je aku cakap ngan dier, pastu angkat beg dan blah. Tapi kira aku keje la aritu sebab aku blah pun dah pukul 5 lebih.

Setiap orang ada had. Untuk semua benda. Jadi tahap sabar aku dah sampai. Bole kira lama jugakla aku tahan. Dekat 2 bulan. Haha, mungkin korang rasa pendek je masa tu tapi hanya Allah je tau seksa keja ni. Lagi satu sebab aku tahan kerana aku nak buktikan yang orang Melayu bole keje kat tahap tinggi. Kat ofis tu berapa ekor la sangat Melayu, apatah lagi carta organisasi. Melayu bole kata ramai keja kuli je. Jadi aku rasa aku adalah salah sorang wakil orang Melayu kat ofis tu.

Tapi apakan daya, aku memang tak bahagia keja kat situ. Semuanya sebab ex-boss aku la. Kerana dia sorang aku kene berenti. Berbaloi ke? Mestila, sebab dengan dia la aku nak mengadap tiap-tiap hari. Aku memang cemburu tengok orang lain seronok keja. Aku ni tak abis-abis kene bambu. Naik tensen la kalu hari-hari kena.

Aku tau susah cari keje sekarang ni tapi nak wat cemane, dari kene marah selalu baik aku cari keje lain. Aku tak kisah ape orang nak cakap, sebab diorang tak rasa. Nak cakap aku bodo berenti ke, tak bersyukur ke lantak hangpa la. Ingat aku kisah?? Hahaha...buat masa sekarang ni kene lagi praktis interview depan cermin. Korang yang tak lagi bekerja, enjoy la hidup korang.

Buat sementara ni, aku pun enjoy la.

Is it the story, or sex?

2009-11-16T20:58:00.004+08:00

A year ago I watched a movie called Twilight. Groundbreaking? No. Captivating? No. Killer storyline? Little. I remember I wasn't mesmerized in that 90 minutes. I was busy looking at girls drooling over Edward Cullen. I watched a lot of movies and that movie by far never would have succeeded. But it was everywhere. Can I watch E! without them mentioning it? Can I go to the bookstores without seeing their cut-outs? It's a clean no.

New Moon gonna come out in a few days and I dunno if I actually excited over it. Call me hypocrite, but the reason why I'm mentioning it in the past posts is because it's a pop culture phenomenon, and I want all of you to experience it. So maybe 15 or 20 years from now yours and my kids will asking question about how big Twilight and we can answer to them, specifically. It's like when I was asking my dad how big was the movie Grease in the 70's. I was reading the third book, Eclipse and half way through it was the same story all over again. It's Bella as the center of attention, again. I ended up didn't buy the book (I got it first as e-book). So why Twilight franchise is so successful?

It was sex all along. Or lust that is. The market for the books is teenage girls. So perfect leading man is needed. In the book Edward portrayed as the perfect guy ever. In the movie Robert Pattison filled that role. Not kinda Edward in my mind, but he's close enough to make horny girls screaming like they were competing in MTV Scream Queen reality show. So the same formula with New Moon film? You betcha.

This time Edward is no longer hot (or ironically ice cold) so Jacob is the new Edward. This time not only the leading man got the looks, but killer bods as well. Perfect combo. And again teenage girls have someone to fill their hearts until the next movie come out. I saw the trailer and I bet it will be like the original movie. Modified, shortened and lame acting. But that didn't stop anything related to Twilight hit #1 in every charts (the soundtrack managed to hit #1 in US).

So people what are you paying for? A quality movie or just to fill your lust? Either way is fine with me, at least know what you are paying for. So don't complain when your boyfriend angry with you drooling all over the Quiletes pack.

Six packs to be exact.

Yea, can't wait...

2009-11-15T12:12:00.002+08:00

PARENTAL ADVISORY: THIS POST CONTAINS SARCASM TO CAR OWNERS/USERS AND KL CITIZENS. READING THIS POST WILL MAKE YOU IRRITATE AND WILL MAKE YOU BANGING YOUR TABLE WITH YOUR FISTS.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

For those who taking public transport, this post means nothing to you. As for car users, this post probably means something to you. But for motorists, this post gonna make you nodding to (almost) every sentences I'm about to write (or type).

I spent little time of my life driving. I got driving license, but the car is what I lacked. Mostly what I see is that driving is for the spoiled or rich fellas. They need to have roof over their head eventhough it's outside and pure air-con is the only way to make them feel alive. Haih, for me I will only drive if my dad rembat my motobike when I'm asleep or raining.

No, this post is not about why I hate driving. It's the road that makes me wanna express my feelings. I live in KL for 3 months and only God knows how pissed I am for the awful road condition there. I lived in Sentul area and it was like lots of asteroid landed of the roads. Going through that road everyday made me thinking about Armageddon, Deep Impact etc. It's mostly jammed everywhere and everytime plus with the patchy road conditions it's like icing on the cake. On the opposite side that is. Dooms day probably come early. When I returned home to Penang, it's still happening. It's everywhere.

Car users probably don't feel the deep and nasty holes too much, since four-wheeled absorb impact better than two-wheeled vehicle. Argh, I can declare that this country have the most terrible road condition ever. When the road will appear like they just been dropped from heaven? Election day.

Yes, that time politicians will appear out of nowhere and talking like they are gods. I'm good, the best, people first and all those bullshit keeps on coming. Well during this time they don't just talk, but walk the walk. Roads are all modified and we can finally see development. But after that, people have to wait 5 years until the next repair. How hypocrite.

My frens, you guys mostly have the most experience when applying for student loans. You need authentication for all your certificates etc and you have been turned down. How suck was that? My dad had been there. He came home in anger and furiously cursing that particular guy. Haha, and I heard most stories from you guys too. The conclusion, this is Malaysia. Hypocrites and money make this country go round.

I can't wait for election day. No that I'm gonna vote, it's just when I laugh to the politicians when they talking like crazy, the development finally moving and I can ignored the news on TV. Who rule the nation? What's the difference? They are all the same. Blabbering idiots with cash signs written on their forehead.

It's cold....

2009-11-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

Today,
I feel the rain,
It's cold,
As ice,
Is my life cold as rain?

Today,
I feel the anger,
It's hot,
As fire,
Is my passion hot as fire?

Today,
I feel the frustration,
It's dark,
As Twilight: New Moon novel,
Is my path dark as New Moon novel?

Erm...wait til the movie is out! Haha!!

Aku tak bermaksud macam tu...

2009-11-06T21:43:00.004+08:00

Aduh! Kekadang kenapa bila kita tak bermaksud nak sakitkan hati orang lain tapi tetap terjadi jugak? Boleh ke kita berfikir lepas tu bercakap? Bagi aku susah sangat nak wat camtu. Aku selalu cakap lepas dan pastu mesti ada yang terasa. Kalu korang kenal aku dah lama mesti korang tau memang aku camtu. Aku tak bermaksud nak sakiti sesapa. Perkataan aku takda makna terselindung. Tapi tetap terjadi. Macam tadi...

Tadi kat front office adela dorang abang ngan akak ni tengah guna PC. Akak ni tak reti sangat pasal I.T ni jadi aku pun ajar la skit-skit. So along the way aku pun pesan la:

Korang bila guna pendrive tolong scan dulu ye...

Akak ni mengaku tak tau tapi abang tu mengaku tau. Jadi aku suruh la dia tunjuk kat aku. Bila aku suruh camtu muka dia trus ubah sambil tunjuk cemana nak scan pendrive. Daripada riak muka dia aku dah tau dia macam bengang sebab aku suruh tunjuk kat aku cemana nak scan pendrive. Kiranya macam aku ni tak percaya la dia tau scan. Sensitif. Korang tau kan ape aku try nak cakap kat sini.

Manusia ni senang nak baca. Daripada riak muka dah tau apa orang tu rasa. Jadi masa balik tadi aku dah rasa bersalah. Aku cuma nak uji sama ada abang tu betul tau ke tak sebab menda ni serius. Kalu pendrive main cucuk pastu kena virus aku jugak kena clean. Bertambah la keja. Bukannya aku pandang rendah kat abang tu. Tu je maksud aku. Tapi abang tu dah amik serius. Hadui, susah la nak jaga hati orang ni. Kalu tak bercakap, dicop sombong. Kalu cakap banyak terkeluar skit ayat sat lagi ada yang terasa.

Cemana ni? Aku nak wat kawan, bukan nak wat lawan. Aku tak mau la pening-pening kepala bila dah keja ni. Ni masalah bole elak. Tapi cemana? Aku rasa aku dah buat ramai orang terasa. Cuma diorang tak cakap ja. Tapi aku tau.

Cuma masa ja bole menentukan. Tapi aku cuba la untuk kurangkan bercakap. Macam omputih cakap:

If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all

Yea, camtula...

Mana la aku tau...ko tau ke?

2009-11-03T22:45:00.006+08:00

Sekarang ni baru aku tau yang keja I.T department ni takla sebagus yang aku sangka. Boleh kata sume orang kat tempat keja aku ni expect yang kami daripada I.T department ni tau segalanya tentang PC ataupun mesin fotostat. Macam tempat kerja baru aku ni, memang la aku baru mula keja jadi macam-macam menda yang aku kena blaja. Tapi manusia ni memang pentingkan diri sendiri, selalu tunjuk jari ja kat orang lain. Aku ni budak I.T jadi kalu apa-apa je berkaitan PC atau teknologi mesti diorang jangka yang aku ni bole selesaikan masalah diorang. Tak adil...

Semalam bila projektor tak boleh nak detect signal daripada laptop, aku pulak yang kene bambu. Apek bodoh yang datang bagi training kat F&B department cakap camni yang bikin aku panas...

Your I.T department guy should know this la...

Hotak kau!! Korang bayangkan masa aku tengah godek projektor sial tu apek tu asyik ulang ayat yang sama. Nape ko tak diam je and let me do my work??! Korang tengok la, kalu ikutkan ye betul aku I.T guy but bukanlah aku tau sume. Aku perlukan masa untuk sort something out. Sabar le kejap. Ni dah la tak sabar, dok bising-bising pulak. Budak I.T tak semestinya tau sume pasal tech ni. Cube korang tanye budak I.T kalu jumpe sekor dua (atau tanya diri sendiri, you know who you are) try test tanya apa beza VGA ngan XGA resolution. Ala, aku tau dah...ramai tak tau...

Sebab tu aku pelik bila keja kat tempat camni. Sume orang macam bodo giler sampai tak reti nak godek sendiri atau bagi masa untuk aku selesaikan sesuatu masalah. Ni tak abis-abis bising pastu tak sabar. Ni lagi satu test untuk tengok korang faham tak situasi aku.

Kita sume rakyat Malaysia kan? Then jawab soklan-soklan ni tanpa menggunakan bantuan (including Google):

a) Bape panjang jambatan Pulau Pinang?
b) Ape permintaan Puteri Gunung Ledang bila Sultan Mahmud gatai nak kawen ngan dia?
c) KOMTAR kat Penang adalah bangunan ke brapa tertinggi di donia nih??

Kalu korang tak dapat jawab satu pun korang tak boleh digelar rakyat Malaysia. Yela kan, takkan kita rakyat tak tau pasal negara sendiri kan? Haa, masa ni la baru korang tau yang walaupun kita ni Malaysian tak semestinya kita tau segalanya pasal Malaysia ni. Jadi sama la ngan situasi aku, cuma manusia ni tak sedar menda ni. Bodoh btol...

Buat masa ni aku just tahan jela dengan kebodohan manusia nih. Biarkan mereka dengan kebodohan mereka. Tunggu masa ja aku nak educate diorang ni...

Aiya, you Malay aa?

2009-10-28T18:14:00.004+08:00

Cube kau tengok gamba aku kat sebelah kanan blog ni. Tengok bebetol. Sape yang rabun jauh mahupun dekat, ko pegi amik spek ko pastu pakai. Tengok gamba aku.

Aku ni Melayu ke Cina?

Ramai giler mengaku aku ni Cina. Adoi, terus-terang aku cakap situasi ni aku dah hadapi sepanjang hidup aku. Kekadang tu memang rasa best sebab orang selalu salah anggap. Tengok je muka aku, terus cakap Cina. Pastu aku kene la cakap:

Sorry, I'm Malay...

Huahuahua...terpinga-pinga auntie yang cakap Hokkien ngan aku. Pastu bole pulak dier jeling pastu komen yang aku selalu sangat denga

Waa, you look like Chinese ah. You sure ah?

Hoho...dan selalu jugak ade orang konfius. Soklan ini selalu ditanya dimana jua aku berada, seperti di stesen minyak dan di kedai makan. Dan sekarang ni aku selalu disalahanggap sebagai Cina oleh rakan-rakan sekerja aku. Bole kata 90% positif aku Cina. Datang dekat aku wajib cakap Cina dulu sebelum diorang segan bila tau aku Melayu. Tempat keja aku bole kata 80% Cina, jadi memang muka camni menolong aku bercampur ngan diorang ni. Tapi sayangnya aku tak bole cakap Cina.

OK, sekarang ni memang aku bersyukur ada muka camni. Walaupun aku ni dah agak letih explain aku Melayu, aku tetap bersyukur. Ade sorang kawan aku tanye ko ni positif ke Melayu, mungkin parents aku tertukar kat hospital ke. Hahaha, memang aku gelak besar time tu. Tapi kalu difikirkan, itu mungkin betul. Parents aku memang muka Melayu. Jadi nape aku camni? Terus-terang aku tak mau pikir kemungkinan tu. Susah oo kalu betol. Tidakkk!!!

I dun need a crystal ball...I already knew

2009-10-23T21:37:00.009+08:00

When Miss B cancelled her The Beyoncé Experience Live! in KL 2007 I wasn't surprised at all. Far from it. Too much restrictions from the government was the cause, plus the parochial-minded people rejected the idea about Beyoncé having a show here. I'm ashamed as a Malaysian. I really do. In 2007 the cancellation caused international headlines, from Billboard to CNN. And when Beyoncé decided to postpone the concert for I Am... Tour in KL it wasn't a shocker. I was thinking she gonna cancel the concert altogether but let's stick to "postponed" for now. I read the news on billboard.com and started laughing all by myself. Not because I find it funny for Beyoncé not to have a concert here but honestly who are we kidding here? We all know this one's coming right? Being optimistic is good, but if you're talking about concert you better forget about it. It saves time.

If an international (or American, it's easier that way) wants to do a show here, it's like try to have peace conference between Gaza and Tel Aviv. Almost impossible. Even Avril Lavigne was in hot water when she had a show here. Sexy? Avril? That's what those idiots say about Avril. Avril is far from sexy lah. Why the hell our people being so parochial and narrow minded?

All this headlines already made Malaysia is one of the most skipped-over country in the world. I just saw Green Day's 21st Century Breakdown World Tour dates and yes, no Malaysia. They will perform in Thailand and Singapore but not here. Why? Ask Linkin Park. Their 2004 concert here was a success but had a lot of curfew. Chester was not allowed to spit during performance and all members weren't allowed to wear shorts. Insane yet bizarre.

Are we moving forward? No. We are right where we started. Square one. We may have the tallest twin tower in the world and among the nicest beaches ever seen but our mind still stuck in the 50's. It's ironic when Internet and TV shows a lot of bare skin and crazy behaviour but still acceptable. What's the difference between those and live concert? I can't see any.

If they really wanted to be conservative then they can migrate to China, where the government control almost everything. Only 20 international movies are allowed there a year. That's how conservative they are. I don't have anything to say for those idiots. Barbarians don't think, they just know how to throw tantrums and yes, act stupidly.

All the single ladies, put your "MIDDLE FINGER UP!!!" Oh Oh Oh...

Oh lelaki kenapa?

2009-10-12T16:05:00.006+08:00

I've been out of dating game for over a year and a half now. Does it bother me? Sometimes. My other half is yet to be found and perhaps for some people it's such a must to be the perfect other-half. Yes, relationship is vital in life but it's also the most painful experience you'll ever tasted.

One thing that really makes me crazy is why men are so easy of infidelity?

I, Mohd Izuan the forever owner of this blog is a male. I've been in love several times and it's always struck me when most of my guyfrens who are attached still find it amusing checking other girls. I swear I never did that and never will. I never asked them why in such way they're behaving. It's just plain weird. Perhaps their other half are not good enough so that checking other girls completely a must? Explain this bullshit to me. When my female friends complain to me about their boyfriends infidelity, I can't really explain why. Why men behaving this way? Is it so hard to stay loyal? I bet dogs can be ten times loyal rather than them.

I've read a lot of psychology books and didn't really found the answer. Even watching Oprah doesn't help. But I did found some clues that you girls can take:

a) Guys are visual. So a pretty scenery is damn important to us.
b) We don't like rhymes or riddles. Want something, tell it STRAIGHT to our face.
c) Don't be our mama. So stop scolding or controlling like a mother.
d) Appreciation. A simple "thank you" is enough if we did anything nice for you girls.
e) More communication. Less talking means more likely the relationship gonna fall apart.
f) Let down your guard. If you're a "ego-ish" type (means no touchy-feely) you should change it immediately. Guys can do that, but not girls. Touchy-feely is a must.

So there you have it. Should these tips help you in your relationship? I hope so. I'm not attched now so can't really experimenting. So you out there if you're attached try it on. If it works, glad I could help. If not, get it over with and move on.

Lots of fish in the sea you know...hint hint...hahaha...chow

Oh sebelum lupe...oh Tuah3, blog tuan hamba telah di-block jadi hamba tidak boleh membacanya lagi...harap dibenarkan...babai...

Boleh ni...boleh...blah...

2009-10-10T02:12:00.004+08:00

Aku tak suka buang masa. Kalau ikutkan buang masa tu macam buang emas permata dll tapi kita langsung tak amik port. Termasuk la tuan empunya badan, kekadang. Biasala, tak sedar, kan? Woh sejak berenti jadi student ni dah macam-macam benda aku buat. Basuh kain, basuh pinggan, angkat baju, mop lantai, sidai tilam adik aku (keja kencing atas tilam le mamat tu), buang sampah, kemas umah, vakum karpet antik mak aku, pegi kedai beli santan, sapu laman (kalu line clear) dan sebagainya (satgi abis blog ni aku senaraikan satu-satu). Jawatan aku dah jadi suri rumah dah ni (aku prefer housewife, vogue skit, hohoh). Kalu la jawatan ni ada EPF, SOCSO...

Selain dari bagi amma aku senyum hari-hari bagaikan beliau mempunyai anak dara yang rajin tahap Gaban, aku ada lagi masa buat menda lain. Bagi korang yang bagi alasan bizzy selalu jangan nak menipu ye. Baru je mintak maap raya itu hari. Aku cuba mengabihkan buku-buku yang telah aku beli macam esok nak kiamat. Aku selalu beli buku, tapi selalu jugak tak abis baca. Bizzy la konon. Aparaa...hang mana BZ Izuan ooi...alasan ja dok bagi...
Jadi sekarang ni aku akan menghabiskan buku yang bersepah dalam bilik aku ni. Rujuk gamba untuk membuktikan betapa tamaknya aku ni. Ni senarai buku yang aku baca sekarang ni:

a) Twilight Saga: New Moon (baca lagi sekali, muvi nak klua bulan depan)
b) Pele: The Autobiography
c) Pop Babylon
d) La Tahzan: Jangan Bersedih
e) A New Earth (baca one more time)
f) Blink: The Power of Thinking Without Thinking
g) Teach Yourself: Spanish
h) The Life With My Sister Madonna
i) Why We Want You To Be Rich
j) Celine Dion: For Keeps

Pergh banyak giler. Mampu ke aku abiskan ni...boleh ni...boleh...blah...

Time goes by...so fast??!

2009-10-03T17:42:00.003+08:00

Hai kengkawan...

Dah bulan sepuluh (10 sahaja) ye. Erm ape agaknye yang korang sume dah perolehi tahun ni? Aku takde banyak sangat dapat, cuma ilang banyak tu ada la...hilang sabar, hilang peluang, skit je lagi nak hilang pedoman dan lain-lain. Korang jangan la ingat aku ni nak hilang akal pulak, walaupun ada la skit-skit ke arah tu...haha...

Sekarang ni sebenarnya aku pun takde apa nak tulih pasal diri aku ni. Masih sama. Aku sekarang ni abihkan masa ngan denga album bebaru dan wat review. Aku ni memang dari dulu gila musik (seperti yang sesetengah korang tau sangat) dan aku rasa mungkin aku bole gune kemahiran aku ni jadikan kerjaya. Nak cakap aku ni terer sangat takdela, cuma mungkin satu hari nanti ade peluang jadi writer kat magazine memane ke, mana nak tau.

Sementara tu jugak aku try la apply keja kan. Interview tu adelah jugak aku pegi, tapi setakat ni takde lagi rezeki aku. Qasieh, tenkiu la sebab nak tolong aku. Tapi masalah jauh la keja tu. Sori bebeh. Aku just nak updatekan korang pasal diri aku je, since berhari dah aku diam tak update blog ni. So frens, tenkiu sebab jenguk blog ni. Aku mesti update kalu aku ade menda nak cakap. Haha, setakat ni takdela banyak sangat nak aku cakapkan. Ni je kot. Jangan risau pasal aku, aku OK dan sihat.

Masa Raya je aku sakit. Timing memang tak bole blah...

it's new...

2009-09-29T12:14:00.003+08:00

Aku sebelum ni ade wat review album sebab macam korang tau la aku ni kan tokey lagu (haha). Review album sebelum ni aku wat kat Frenster tapi memandangkan Frenster dah tak hot macam dulu jadi aku pun wat la blog kedua untuk tujuan murni (eceh) ni. Harap korang follow la ye. Kalu korang nak aku review pape album bagitau le...tapi make sure English or Spanish jek...

Alamatnye: http://musictheoneandonly.blogspot.com/

Anyway aku dah sihat balik. Still planning bila nak pegi beli baju raya. Haha, segan siot baru nak pegi beli....

You want it?

2009-09-24T08:07:00.005+08:00

Raya definitely not going well for me. In addition to my eyes, I got food poisoning on the 3rd Raya. Fascinating doesn't it? After countless toilet visits, it's finally getting better today. I even can't join my friends Raya tour this year which happen yesterday. I'm gonna stop asking why this shitty things keep on coming. Just redha jelah....

Well last night one of my friends was kind enough to send me this text. I think it's nasty, yet hilarious.

PETUA SAYANG ISTERI

Kalau ada perselisihan faham, ajaklah BERMUZAKARAH
Kalau gagal cuba pula BERMUSYAWARAH
Dan jika masih gagal tanya MAUZAKARKAH?

You be the judge. The end.

Let's see what you got....don't be shy...

2009-09-21T03:13:00.010+08:00

Well first and foremost...Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!! It's the 22nd time I celebrate this wonderful day but ironically it is the first time in 22 years of my life that I entitled to stay at home during this day. You know what happened. I got infected with some-kind-of-eyes-virus that make me look like a character from 28 Weeks Later film. Biting is one of the zombie's traits but I'm not into biting mortals (but Erin insists that I become a vampire, very much like Edward Cullen, ahem) and biting Raya cookies and nasi impit+great-meat-dish-I-dunno-what-name-it-is keep me busy during the day. I don't give a damn on who's in the house since I will probably get them out of the house pretty quickly with my evil eyes...hahahaha....

All I know now is that everybody's asleep but I'm wide awake. It's 3.21 am (Adiela in UK adjust your clock now, hehe). I just watched CNBC and there was this show called The Suze Orman Show and it's probably the second show I'm gonna watch on CNBC (along with Conan O'Brien Show) and it was awesome!! It's about money guys...and it was a slap to my face. Ouch. Dah la sakit mata nih...kena lempang plak...well not literally I mean...

The Suze Orman Show involves around money matters and start nodding now guys, money has always been an issue. Some of us say no, it's never an issue. But still, it is true? Open your wallet and tell me it is a freaking problem. Well let's see...I got RM300 in cash and RM91 in bank account. Plus I got over RM21,000 in debt for two pieces of paper called diploma. I'm unemployed and still alive. A miracle? Not quite...

This post is actually try to make you realize how much you are in debt. Most of us especially students tend to forget they have to pay back each and every penny that they loaned and on top of that, interest. PTPTN is sure love to give but yes, it's also love to accept, even MORE!! So my friends who are loaning, please think before you make that purchase. Myself always wants something new (like right now, I'm dreaming of the new iPod Nano, sexy siott!!) and I know I cannot afford it. So what's the solution?

Start by shaking yourself to wake up from this financial dreams. We are not rich people!! Stop spending for something you cannot afford or even need. We need to educate ourselves about money. Right now I started reading Donald Trump's Why We Want You To Be Rich. I wanna be rich. I know you do, too. At the present time try to be thankful for what you have, like me for my 3 years old 6GB Creative ZEN mp3 player. It is sooo outdated (it was released back in 2004) and it has gone a period what we call "nyanyok already". A few glitches here and there but until it's dead, no new MP3 for me. It's sad truth but that's The Ugly Truth (oh the film is soo good...in theaters now).

So instead of 3D or digital 2D version of a movie, try the retro 35mm movies. I know who you are, who loves 3D movies. Perhaps it's time we all ask ourselves, is this a need or want? Or between Gold Class, Premiere Class or classless?

You go figure. If all else fails, try ask your wallet. It will surely nodding in agreement that you are certainly broke...

p/s: Congrats for Madonna with her new single Celebration entered at #3 in UK!! It is her 60th Top 40 entry in the country!! So Adiela, beli kat aku CD single tuh...hehehe...

No not yet...

2009-09-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

For all my frens, I'm not yet into Raya mode since I haven't got my baju Raya etc (but I bantai Raya cookies already). So no Raya e-cards or greetings just yet.

Perhaps in the next few days...hang in there...

It's silly I know...

2009-09-17T06:15:00.004+08:00

Spoiler alert: To all my friends from KLMU, please don't take this post seriously. I'm just expressing something about KLMU and I believe in freedom of speech. Please take this as an opinion. Thank you.

Dah macam Parental Advisory dah ni...move along then...

Two days ago I received a call from KL which from the first two numbers and I figured out perhaps KLMU finally gave me a call to claim something from me. When I saw that 03 number, I thought what am I gonna tell them. Anything BS would do I guess...

It's true, a lady from KLMU was on the other side of the line. But the case was different, here's the line from her:

Saya (somebody's daughter) daripada KLMU nak menawarkan peluang belajar sambil bekerja bla bla bla...

I was confused. Two reasons why. First, why this girl calling me with an offer of a study opportunity? How come she didn't know that I was a student there? Imagine if I'm still a KLMU student, if she gave me a call it would be stupid if she offered me the offer since I already a student there. Now you can see how clueless and silly their administration are. The evil and all-about-commission Marketing Department have no idea about the existing student. Now I know every department there have no communication with each other. They just bother about themselves. No wonder I struggled there.

Second, how long does it gonna take for them to notice that I quit from there? I guess it would be eternity, since one of my amigo quit Cosmopoint (a division of KLMU) and almost a year now he never received a call from them. Wow, now you can see how troublesome they are. They don't even know what they're doing. They don't care about the students...just money makes their world go round...

I studied in UNISEL before and I thought UNISEL sucks to the bone. But it's such an eye opener when KLMU defeated UNISEL to claim the worst IPT I've been. Hands down. Now the lesson for me would be if you think the situation you've been is a deep shithole, there are other more deeper and even worse shithole than yours.

For my friends, please bear with them. I know you guys can pull this off. Finish what you started, which I have failed to do. Finish it for me guys. Get your money worth and never let them rip you off.

Your money do not grow on trees, you know it's true.

You're such an asshole...

2009-09-15T07:26:00.004+08:00

The most anticipated event in music business since Grammys in February, the MTV Video Music Awards is here! Well it's not gonna be aired in our shores in a few days (we always get left behind) but still we could catch a glimpse on what happen. Yet again a very high-arrogance Kanye West made the headlines, not even winning any awards, but how?

A few years back he pissed not winning any awards with several nominations. Padan muka. He threw tantrum on MTV and after that, apologize. I'm sick of you Kanye. For this VMA he didn't stole the thunder for being a loser but objected when my girl Taylor Swift won for Best Female Video. Well just watch the video I posted.

What the hell? What is with you Kanye? He once said (approx):

The most regretful thing in my life would be that I can't watch myself performing live

OMG!! This guy such an arrogant asshole. I love his music but his attitude really blew me off. Perhaps it's just your music that great, not you Kanye. Stop living in your "me-me-and always me" world. Public is really hating you right now. Myself never gonna accept your apologies because as we all know, you gonna screw up again. Save your sorry for someone that cares. But I know there's no one left to take that.

Officially I'm no longer a Kanye West fan. I will still listen to his music but I will never buy his CD anymore. To Taylor Swift, you go girl. I never a fan of country music but you are an exception. I just got your album Fearless. You should live up to that title, fear no one, including that bastard...

I'm sorry amma...

2009-09-12T18:07:00.008+08:00

It's been weeks (I lost count) and fasting did little thing to make me realize that I'm not eating during daytime. I never noticed the difference since at night I'm eating like there's no tomorrow. Hahaha...pretty slick ya think? I'm not the only one here. You, you and you...do the same thing right? Sure, you have like,

Oh damn. Beli already...don't want to membazir...

For me I need more food. The satisfaction over a plate of rice never make me full. Well actually it's lust that makes me feel that way (baik punye alasan). Sure there are 7 deadly sins and in this holy Ramadhan month I committed one deadly sin. MasyaAllah...so how much you guys eat everyday? Don't say you're on diet, tak baik tipu. Forget the fact that your wish is to lose weight. It's never gonna happen. With foods everywhere your stomach is the main controller of your brain. I remember when I'm in KL I always think that one dish is definitely show that you are stingy. Come on, almost 13-14 hours without food you think logically you can be full with just one dish? But after buka puasa, I know that's not true. Most human know when to stop eating. I'm one of them, but after a couple of hours I'm back in the kitchen. Eating. Ish ish...

The pic showing that I bantai my mom Raya cookies way before raya. Psst...my mom have no idea 'bout this. How can I resist that insatiable round shape? The chocolate rice on top of it? Ish, it's impossible. Aiyo, that's why la I can never lose weight (even though I never intended to). So amma, this raya day please forgive me for bantai-ing your cookies. How to susun ayat la?

Probably I should send her a Raya card. That will cool her down.

If not my head is on the chopping block...

Hepi?? Anniversary...

2009-09-12T00:19:00.003+08:00

Tadi pagi aku pegi interview keja untuk Telekom. Posisi apa? Customer Service. Aku ni terus-terang dah naik bosan ngan terma tu. Bukan apa, kalu nak diikutkan aku dah tak suka melayan kerenah orang. Masa kat GSC dulu korang taulah memang macam-macam kerenah aku dah jumpa. Hati aku bukan keras macam granit, terguris dan tercalar tu dah selalu. Takkan aku nak tahan lagi ngan perangai manusia yang macam sial kalu aku dapat keja ni? Sebenarnya aku pun bukan apply keja ni, masa aku sehari sampai Penang agensi keja tipon aku untuk interview keja Telekom ni. Kalu ikut logik tak kuasa aku nak apply lagi keja yang paling susah ni....

Bagi sesapa yang langsung tak penah rasa keja area Customer Service korang janganla salah anggap yang keja ni senang. Bagi aku ni la keja paling mencabar dalam dunia ni. Korang yang keja ofis memang manja (erm sapa tu?). Keja ngan PC, printer dan sekali-sekala bergosip ngan teman sepejabat takkan dapat menandingi susah keja ngan orang ramai. Kena ugut, maki-hamun, jerkah, kena tuduh biadap tu memang selalu la aku kena. Sebab tu la keja camni la senang dapat, sebab takda orang nak keja camni. Dahla tu, gaji pulak ciput. Tak berbaloi ngan maki hamun yang aku kena hampir tetiap hari. Sebelum ni ada jugak aku terfikir nak apply Assistant Manager kat GSC tu tapi macam aku cakap tadi, hati aku bukan macam batu granit. Apa saja orang maki aku mesti turun sampai hati. Sakit tak tau nak kata.

So sekarang ni aku cuma berdoa kalu dapat keja ni mungkin aku akan tolak. Aku tau keadaan agak sempit sekarang ni tapi ini melibatkan menda yang aku akan wat bertahun-tahun yang akan datang. Takut nanti tak sampai 10 tahun aku keja dah masuk wad gila. Takmo beb camtu. Walaupun aku rasa aku agak ketinggalan tapi perjalanan hidup masih jauh lagi. Masih ada masa untuk menentukan apa yang aku nak. Keja ngan mesin atau PC tak susah sebab menda-menda tu takleh nak maki hamun kita, jadi kita yang selalunya maki menda-menda ni kan? Hahaha...

Anyway sad anniversary untuk 9/11. Tu ja.

Argh...sentimental betoi la...

2009-09-09T03:42:00.003+08:00

Aku dah dekat seminggu balik Penang tapi beg baju aku langsung tak sentuh. Pehal? Bukanlah aku ni seorang yang pemalas (yelah tu) tapi cuma aku cuma sikit sedih sebab beg besar tu la menda pertama aku bungkus masa blah dari KL. Tak ke korang tau apa aku rasa? Huih, jangan cakap la pasal sedih. Buddies aku macam si Fadzil, Merul, budak-budak umah Tun sume sedey aku blah. Aku macam tak tau cemana nak respon kat diorang ni. Sebab tu aku blah camtu ja, kalu tak nak explain kat sorang-sorang memang la takkan abes. Tapi aku tetap bagitau kenapa aku blah, which is aku takleh nak elak. Bapak aku nak keja brenti keja, jadi kalu aku blaja tak ke pentingkan diri namanya tu? Aku takmo tengok parents aku struggle nak support aku time blaja. Takmo.

Sekarang ni life cam takda kemajuan. Masih kat situ gak. Nak keja kat GSC balik dah segan. Ramai kawan-kawan aku dah teruskan kehidupan. Cuma aku yang dok ketinggalan. Masa ni la aku rasa perit sebab aku takleh nak wat degree dah. Aku cuma ada sekeping diploma (eh, sorry 2 keping sebab ada BM satu BI satu) dan degree tu mungkin aku takkan ada. Buddy aku Si Qasieh mesti tau cemana rasanya jadi college dropout. Kita geng Qas!! Haha.

Aku dah try cari kerja leklok skit. Ada la satu dua panggilan interview. Harap-harap melekat la keja kali ni. Memang aku miss KL sekarang ni. Geng-geng KLMU suma aku rindu, harap dapat jumpa hangpa lagi kalu ada rezeki. Dah ada peluang ni stadi leklok. Kalu tak memang korang tak bersyukur. Kan? Hoho...jangan ponteng posa gak. Mak marah weh...

OKla tu ja luahan hati sedih aku ni. Nak prepare untuk interview keja plak. Dok praktis cakap sorang-sorang depan cermin macam orang hilang akal. Tipikal la...

p/s: Check out my new hair!! Mahai aku wat weiii...

Death in 3D? Yummy...

2009-09-06T12:29:00.005+08:00

SPOILER ALERT FOR THE FINAL DESTINATION (BETUL FINAL NI!!)

OK the cat is out of the bag. I'm a college dropout. I bet most of you have mixed feeling bout this. Honestly I don't really care. Eventhough I'm back to square one perhaps I should look elsewhere for opportunity. Anyway I'm still the same guy so movies is what I do to past all these FREE time that I have.

My buddies should know that I love violent movies. SAW films is the trigger point for me. Amputated legs, hands and lots of blood makes me amused. The more the better. Hands down to The Hills Have Eyes for making me addicted to it. Touchdown y'all!! But I never watched this franchise films of Final Destination. Never heard of it. But if it's violent, I gotta watch it, eventhough it's already the FINAL installment (jeez I wonder when the hell SAW films gonna ends).

Let's cut to the chase. This film is no good. The effects filled with CGI and let's face it, CGI is not cool. I bet the producers never watched SAW films or even Dawn of the Dead 2004. Old skool effects always work best for this kind of movies. But no, they prefer computers over make-up. No wonder I never heard of Final Destination franchise...it sucks!

But one point makes me think is that you can't really escape death. I find it funny when the characters try so hard to deny death. Death come in many ways so the characters died with tragic twist (grinned in escalator, hit by ambulance (how ironic) etc) and the final scene should be two characters died in an explosion while watching 3D movie. Have you ever imagined died in 3D? I say that's the coolest finale ever but no, it never happened. Damn.

p/s: Oh yea. Happy Besday to my buddy Tun Alifuddin. Ibumu merinduimu. Haha...

Why it's so damn hard...

2009-08-26T06:49:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking a lot, why the hell my life in KL is so goddamn hard? I don't get it, my intuition is only to pursue my degree and yet lots of shitty things happen to me. Why?

Yesterday was by far the worst. When I heard that PTPTN loan contract finally out I feel like a huge burden was lifted from my shoulder. At least I don't have to worry 'bout cash all the time. But the problem was far from over.

Thanks to the idiotic staff in KLMU that mistakenly read my mother's payslip my loan is almost 10k short from everyone else. Fuck! Can they read a simple payslip? Gosh, now I have to pay for the stupid mistake. Who the hell gonna support me if I don't get enough loans like everybody else? I dunno guys, this is too much for me to handle. Now PTPTN thought my mom earn almost RM4k a month so they cut out my loans because supposedly I was born with silver spoon in my mouth. KLMU staff simply said to me that the contract is already out and I have to take the amount that they offered. Why the hell should I do that? It's not my mistake, why should I pay for it?

My mom only works in factory, she's not even a supervisor. How can she earn 4k a month? Ridiculous. If your suggestion is for me to work part-time, I tried that before. But I only lasted a week because the schedule was so hectic I can barely have time to sleep. I got only 3 month a semester, that's the reason why I can't work. Either I work or study, not both. I wanna have great results and great life. I know I deserve it. But this shit hole is deeper than anything I've been into.

Perhaps Allah have better plans for me, which is to start work. That's only I have in mind now. Perhaps art student is never been a path I should take. So now all I can do is try to correct the mistakes.

If not then you know where to find me...

If today was your last day...

2009-08-17T14:44:00.002+08:00

I don't like hospital. Going there means that you're sick or visiting somebody who is sick. Let's face it y'all, none of us like hospital. It's the place of sadness. This is where people finally meet their Creator. Do you know when you going to meet yours?

I went to hospitals a few times before, and it crushed my heart when I saw family members crying over their loved ones. I felt like this is hell, where sadness and misery comes hand-in-hand. Well, yesterday it was super scary. Hospital is where I gotta be. I have to. Hospital or die...

I got this fever on Friday and it's still lingers on me. It never really go away. I'm not optimistic, and with this stupid voice keep reminding me I probably die of H1N1. Then I think what if today is my last day...have I live my life to the fullest? Far from it...far...

Time passes by with us failed to make the best of it. We always want to be on the other side, where suffering has ended. I can't imagine myself the next week, will I still be alive? Will I able to see my family again? My friends? Too much...

When I only diagnosed with just regular fever, it was a relief. I'm not going yet, but I never know when I really going. Don't get carried away with this world. It's only temporary. Death is for sure, never ever doubt it.

Have you prepared yourself for it?

I choose to lie...you do too...

2009-08-14T11:09:00.003+08:00

No doubt that the iPhone (or Jesus phone mentioned in tech mags) is the most popular phone even though it's still super wallet burner but most of us still salivating when looking at it. When I think back the original iPhone cannot:

a) Send MMS
b) Make video call
c) Share files via Bluetooth
d) Bluetooth streaming
e) Cut and paste function
f) Record video

People paid for RM$$$$ (price varies) for a phone that can't do all those basic things? What a loser...but wait. It sold faster than goreng pisang when it when on sale a few years back and it still do. One small thing that stuck in my head, do we really use all those miss-functions when we use the iPhone? I don't think so...

Let's take one function, say, video call. When 3G launched people go crazy over it, like heaven finally opened its doors to tech goers. But if we look back, almost all of us never made video calls, true? I have a Sony Ericsson K530i and only made one video call and I only received a video call from my bro a few days ago. FYI, video calls never took off because when we video call, it's hard to lie. Don't start now folks, I know most of you lied on phone calls. I did, a few times. Hands clean...

Here's a situation:

A husband wants to watch football match with his mates but he already promised his wife he will be home early for dinner. If he use video call, how da hell he gonna lie to his wife? With old-school phone call, he can lie and live a happy life.

The end.

Apple is one smart bastard. The company managed to see what people really use and put it inside the iPhone. But most of us still overlooked this as we say "more is better". Sure lots of phone today have WiFi, 3G, multi-megapixel camera, giga-almost-tera bytes of space but do we really use that? When the hell you gonna surf the web via your tiny phone screen? A netbook is of course a more secure bet. 8 megapixel camera? The pictures still blurry and compact digicams gonna win hands-down. Spaces? What's my portable hard-disk for? Or my 16GB SD cards?

Astronomical price is still the only bummer. So, iPhone or Nokia E63?

The wallet will call a winnner....

Wah, bukan main ko ek...

2009-08-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

Memandangkan si Satish dengan senang hati MC hari ni kami yang dah termanggu-manggu tunggu mamat tu terpaksa balik dengan hati yang tak berapa nak best. Aku memang dah plan dalam pale otak aku ni yang aku nak serang Low Yat untuk beli earphone baru. Earphone Creative yang aku beli 2 tahun lepas dah expired, jadi kena la beli baru. Macam-macam kena beli baru...haih...

Masa turun tangga KLMU tuh si Irwansyah (dier budak Kelate, bukan Endon) cakap ngan aku dier pun nak pegi Low Yat ngan Qayyim. Aku pun on la sebab dah lama round sesorang. Best gak ade kawan. Aku pun janji nak jumpa kat sane....malangnya....

Time aku kat area Bukit Bintang ujan dah stat turun. Aku pun ape lagi, dengan pantas cari stesen minyak untuk selamatkan harta menda aku yang sensitif cecair (i.e netbook). Lepas tu ujan turun la dengan lebatnya...aku pun start berangan kalu la time ni aku kat umah...fuuhh...bantal, tilam yang empuk...yeah...tapi aku kat Esso time tu...hemmm...

Masa aku lepak kat Esso tu tetiba ada sorang unkle botak bawak Iswara tahap besi buruk parking depan moto aku. Aku ingat dier nak isi minyak, tapi takde pun. Lepak aje mamat botak tu dalam keta. Aku naik hairan nape lepak kat sini, sedangkan orang nak isi minyak susah. Dier dah block jalan kat Esso tuh, tapi wat bodo atau memang bodo. Kesian aku tengok bila orang datang nak isi minyak, susah bebenor.

Pastu akak cashier datang la suruh dier lepak jauh skit, sebab dah block jalan. Tapi menjawab ye mamat tu tuan-tuan. Last-last akak tu give up dan pegi jaga kaunter. Aku memang naik hairan, nape ko lepak dalam stesen minyak ni sedangkan keta ko kan ade bumbung? Nak cakap Iswara ade klua versi convertible takde la plak. Kalu takleh nak drive dalam ujan then lepak la tepi jalan ke. Ni tak, lepak dalam stesen minyak yang kecik tuh. Apa punya manusia la...pikir diri sendiri ja. Bengap...

Jadi pengajaran yang abang nak bagitau adik-adik hari ni ialah walaupun keputusan yang kita wat nampak kecik dan takda masalah akan timbul tapi kekadang keputusan kecik tu la yang effect orang lain. Dan ingatlah bukan ko sorang je dalam dunia ni, kita hidup bermasyarakat. Kalu nak ikut pale otak sendiri je gi dok dalam hutan. Area KL ni ko nak hutan kat Bukit Nenas tuh, area KL Tower. Tak cukup pokok kat situ ko panjat la KL Tower tuh.

Po po!! (dialek Tamil bermakna pegi pegi!!)

I'm bored...and never lovin' it...

2009-08-11T15:26:00.006+08:00

Every Tuesday I always tell myself not to get outside. It's simply not worth my time. But every afternoon I have to drag myself out of my house. This is hands-down the hardest thing I have to do every week. What could be so hard to attend a class?

It's Mr Satish class. You get the idea. It's been almost 3 months since we entered this class and it is still the same Satish that I posted about before. He never really change. I just don't get it. Right now my will simply evaporated into thin air. No more interest in this class. Can you really call this a class? Barely...

I dunno what do I have to do to get my money's worth. Right now I'm in his class typing this blog entry. I'm simply lost interest on what happen in this class. I tried to push myself to "learn" whatever he's showing us but I can't push myself to do something useless. I'm not gonna simply follow what he's showing us because he never explain what is it for. The point of doing all those things that he teach us.

I'm leaving now...

Ah brape? Nak amik...

2009-08-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

Lagi sekali post pasal duit. Bila dok KL ni baru la aku perasan sebenarnya orang Malaysia ni kaya-raya. Masa aku dok Penang jarang gila aku nampak keta mewah yang ada dalam majalah Autocar yang aku dok baca tetiap bulan. Aku naik pelik bila ada brand-brand yang mahal tahap gaban dijual kat Malaysia macam Maserati ngan Bentley.

Harga keta Bentley adala dalam sejuta ringgit satu, pastu campur cukai ngan insurans etc dah dekat RM2 million. Tak ke korang rasa manusia yang bole beli menda-menda camni memang tak merasa pening susah nak cari duit? Gambar kat atas ni adalah salah satu kereta mewah yang orang KL ramai dok pakai selain daripada keta faveret aku Porsche Cayenne iaitu Mercedez Benz CLS 55 AMG. Keta ni tak dijual secara rasmi kat Malaysia oleh Mercedez Benz Malaysia dan memang dah sah keta ni diimport dari luar. Harga keta ni aku agak-agak dalam rm1.5 juta atas jalan. Agak-agak cemana la tuan keta ni nak baya bulan-bulan ye? Berapa agaknya? Downpayment? Insurans lagik?

Bila la aku nak kaya? Dok berhutang ja keja...haih...

I don't understand...but what the heck...

2009-08-05T21:46:00.007+08:00

First a fact: Golden Screen Cinemas Mid Valley Megamall housed 18 screens and have 2899 seats, which is the biggest multiplex in Asia. Ironically Malaysia is one of the smallest country in Asia...hmm weird doesn't it?

Well this evening I finally got a chance to watch a movie in the biggest multiplex in Asia. Having to work before in GSC, I found it interesting that every GSC is the same, except the environment. But when I was a staff in GSC, I found one thing that really bugs me, do people really understand the movie they watch? At that time I found out that people don't really give a damn 'bout the story. They just simply enjoy the effects and by words of mouth...I think their hard earned cash doesn't mean anything at all...

Before I came up with that conclusion, I did a little survey after movies are over. I would stand on the exit door and asked:

So sir, how was the movie?

The feedback was a bit lame. They simply don't care or just say OK and I didn't really get the excitement if the movie was great. And let me tell you this, Hollywood is running out of ideas. Example Terminator 4 is actually Terminator 2.5, and Fast & Furious 4 is also Fast & Furious 2.5. They sit right the middle of previous movies. But customers that I got never complained about the silly storyline. Most people keep on coming to watch the movie. That was really confusing...why people wanna see a movie that go backwards? Only Star Wars can do that...

But now I finally understand what they felt. Today I watched Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince and honestly I don't understand the movie since I'm not a Harry Potter fan plus the near-Bollywood runtime. But after the movie, I can't really hate it. I dunno why. My head keep telling me to hate it but my heart says no. Hmm...so people, we human are very complicated. We even like things that we don't understand.

Perhaps the world is going crazy after all...

We are all brothers...from Africa?

2009-08-03T17:57:00.005+08:00

Yet again it's Monday and of course Mr Bala will come into our class and start his "so-called" class. Well this few weeks he keeps on repeating something that he already mentioned or did such as "where are you from?" and "why you must improve your English" etc. Honestly I'm getting bored because jokes are only works once, or maybe twice, but never more than that. I concluded that he's running out of ideas. But still, he surprised me. Here's what he's gotta say this week...

Mr. Bala always proud to come from Sri Lanka (his ancestors from there, the Tamil Tigers generation) and always mentioned that politics really sucks (tell me 'bout it) and we cannot simply pride our race to be better than others. That's the reason why we are so far from each other. But this is where he fall off the tangen. He said that all of us came from Africa, no matter what your skin colour etc. I dunno bout that and keep questioning the truth behind that claim...

All I know is my ancestors came from Pakistan (my father's side) and Indonesia (my mother's side). There are no Africa in the words. But still I think it's pretty true, since civilization and religion started from that region. But it's all in the distant past, so what should I care? I can't see the reason why...can you?

Then he keep reminding us that the greatest people alive or passed away are black. Nat King Cole, Muhammad Ali, Michael Jackson, Ray Charles...all great people that are very influential to the world today. I can see he's right, but white people do strive too right? I don't say he is wrong but he just try to make his point true. So for me, 50-50 then...

But one thing for sure Mr. Bala did recommend us one thing. If you see African tourists along the road or somewhere, go give them a hug, because we are family! I think that's a good idea. If I do it I will say "Yo my man, my brother from another mother!!"

I'm not sure I'll end up alive or end up on the hospital bed...

Blaja rajin-rajin! It's an order!!

2009-08-01T20:30:00.004+08:00

Yesterday after Friday prayer yours truly went to a makcik shop to buy some sugar...

Makcik, gula katne?

That makcik pun answerlah...

Ade kat tepi tu, gi amik...

Yours truly just read something on the newspaper saying that sugar in some territories are hard to find, so he decided to make some conversation with that makcik...

Makcik sekarang ni gula dah susah nak dapat ek, yela dah nak puasa ni pastu raya pulak...

That makcik like biasa answer...

Itula makcik selalu cakap, blaja rajin-rajin. Makcik selalu bising kat anak makcik blaja rajin-rajin sebab nanti bole pegang ekonomi. Bukan macam sekarang ni, asyik mengekor je ape yang jadi. Kamu pun student kan? Nanti dah abis blaja pegang ekonomi, takde susah macam sekarang ni...

Yours truly went home with a head full with thoughts.

Betul jugak cakap makcik tu...don't you think so?

It's time...sing Forrest sing!!

2009-07-30T21:02:00.006+08:00

Now for the most waited blog entry so far, how da hell we went through the singing contest with Mr Bala??

Million dollar question with one dollar answer: it was OK!! How can it be you ask? Well most of my friends got cold feet (even cold hands, since they were shaking when they sang) but all of us sang!!
The condition wasn't as bad as we thought (I wish it went miserably) and Bala never laugh at all. It was a surprise since Bala with all his vulgar attitude he managed to stay cool and listen without any harsh comment. I still can't believe his mouth shut tight during the tedious process.

At that time Bala asked us who wanna start first. Yours truly didn't wanna be the first person to sing. Uh uh...but luckily girls went off first and eventhough they didn't sound like Siti Nurhaliza but it was brave for them to be the first to sing. Bravo...

Actually I don't really remember the whole process since it was two days ago. I wish I write this blog earlier then we gonna have the juiciest bits from the event. But what to to, this week is hell for me, 3 mid-term exams at once! So don't really pay attention to what happen to me this week. All I know I wanna get over this exams a.s.a.p!

OK, that's it for now. Sorry 'bout the lack of info. Lupa dah...

Bila manusia tak sedar diri...

2009-07-29T21:14:00.005+08:00

Sepatutnya blog entry kali ni aku ceritakan pasal sesi nyanyian ngan Mr. Bala. Salah sorang pengikut blog aku si Qasieh siap mintak gamba close-up si Bala lagi tuh. Minat ke? Heheh. Tapi apakan daya, aku terpaksa tangguhkan pasal Bala demi satu kejadian yang amat memalukan manusia yang tinggal sekali kat Kondo Sentul Utama nih...

Aku dah lama dok area KL ni, jadi memang dah biasa yang manusia kat sini ade yang open tapi ada jugak yang closed minded. Yang closed minded ni la yang jadi penyebab kenapa kami yang dok hostel jadi tak tentu arah sekarang ni. Ceritanya camni...

Kat hostel ni ramai budak-budak KLMU dan ade gak budak kolej lain (berSEGI kolej antaranya) dan biasala budak-budak muda nak melepak kat tepi kolam renang tahap Olimpik (tapi student tak leh wat pape kat kolam tu) sampai larut malam. Tapi residen kat sini sumanya tak sedar diri, melepak camtu pun tak boleh. Aku bila tau ada peraturan baru camtu, aku dah stat garu kepala. Abis tu masa diorang muda-muda dulu tak penah lepak ke? Ni KL beb, bukan kampung atau estet tempat diorang datang. Dan selepas tu ada je menda yang kami takleh wat. Sebenarnye ada banyak citer aku denga dan paling terbaru, sume budak laki kat sini kene pindah gi hostel kat Kepong.

Bapak gila jauh! Naik moto pun dekat setengah jam baru sampai kolej, kalu naik komuter nak jalan jauh, pastu kena bayar 2 way. Denga RM4 two way. Sehari RM4? Gila babi apa...

Sekarang ni apa yang aku tak faham knapa residen kat sini closed minded sangat? Bukan suma student jahat, ada sesetengah ja. Tapi dicop suma jahat. Langsung tak sedar diri. Dan student ni plak bodo, bunyi ja blaja universiti, tapi dah marah dicontengnya dinding kayu lift dengan perkataan-perkataan maki hamun. Apekah bodoh diorang ni? Memang tak syak lagi...

Kalu nak diikutkan dua-dua pihak salah, tapi kami tak wat pape ni la tanggung akibatnya. Haih, lepas satu masalah, datang lagi satu. Redha jelah. Wat kawan-kawan yang sama status ngan aku sabar la ek. We're in this together.

United we stand!!!

(Macam nak gi perang dah...)

P/S: Sesape (especially gadis-gadis) yang suka kacau rumahtangga atau relationship kawan-kawan aku tolongla bertaubat. Bukan takde laki lain dalam donia nih. Dan yang terhegeh-hegeh kat jantan (u noe who u are) bawak-bawak jugak bertaubat. Ko tu bukan lawa sangat pun, cukupla ko rosakkan relationship besfren aku. Tak masuk syurga kalu orang tu tak maafkan dosa kau. Mind.

Sale!!! Tapi untuk sape?

2009-07-28T22:57:00.007+08:00

Korang nampak perkataan ape kat gamba sebelah ni? Bukan IKEA atau Home Furnishing tapi SALE!!!. Minggu lepas salah sorang BFF aku Erin citer kat aku yang IKEA wat sale macam esok dah nak kiamat. Si Erin pun shopping sakan pun macam esok nak kiamat (hehe lawak je). Wah sekarang ni musim sale-sale ye. Merata aku pi mesti ada yang wat sale. Tempat faveret aku seperti kedai CD (Rock Corner rocks!!) atau kedai buku (Borders The Curve memang curve abis!!) takde pulak nak wat sale. Tak adil betol. Wat sale menda-menda umah kat IKEA nih, bukan nak wat sale kat kedai-kedai yang aku sebutkan tadi. Haha, dah IKEA jual menda umah, takkan la dier nak wat sale buku pulak ye tak...duh!

Yelah, nape kedai-kedai aku minat pegi tak wat sale? Knapa?? Tapi difikirkan bagus gak diorang tak wat sale, kalu tak memang dah pegi pajak gadai aku gadaikan apa yang perlu...haha. Tapi sekarang ni orang rasanya dah jarang nak shopping sebab keadaan ekonomi pastu ngan H1N1 lagik. UiTM satu Malaya tutup sebab menda alah tu. Adik aku punya poli pun tutup seminggu dan juga kawan aku Azura (crew leader GSC dulu) yang blaja nak jadi cekgu kat IPIK Cheras kena halau balik Penang sebab ada budak kena virus babi tu. Huii...makin takut aku.

Rasanya sekarang ni lebih selamat dok umah ye?

Ah takde!! Aku kaki round, takde nak dok umah membatu ja. Sorila bebeh, not me. Weekend ni PC Fair...ada brani?

P/S: Ah ye...smalam kitorang dah melalak kat Bala. Mau story? Nanti la ye...tunggu...

Never been done before...

2009-07-24T15:55:00.003+08:00

Minggu ni adalah antara minggu yang paling teruk yang aku penah alami. Terus-terang memang nak aje aku larikan diri daripada masalah yang asyik menghentam kepala otak aku ni. Tapi aku pegi mana pun masalah tu tetap tak selesai.

Salah sorang kawan baik aku iaitu moto aku jatuh sakit baru-baru ni. Aku dah habis banyak kat dier, pastu Selasa ni kena gi Modenas Shah Alam nak sahkan kesihatan moto aku tu. Risau abis aku. Dahla jauh amat, ntah brapa pulak kena kalu nak repair kali ni. Aku memang tak reti nak duduk diam, kalu kat Penang pun abis satu pulau aku keliling kalu ade free time. Jadi apatah lagi KL yang ade banyak giler tempat menarik lagi mengabihkan wang aku...

Sekarang ni aku ada kat hostel, sebab moto aku tu dinasihatkan tidak berjalan jauh untuk sementara waktu. Aku berdoa agar moto aku tu sihat la untuk dibawa ke Shah Alam ari Selasa ni. Tak penah aku ade kat hostel ari Jumaat. Macam pelik...tapi wat biasa la...tapi tetap feeling luar biasa...

Ya Allah, tingkatkanlah kesabaran dalam diri hambaMu ini...sesungguhnya setiap masalah adalah ujianMu bagi menguji sejauh mana iman hamba-hambaMu...

Sabar jela yob...

p/s: Tengah praktis lagu untuk nyanyi kat Bala Isnin ni...hmm...takde feeling nak nyanyi la...

Jangan bersedih...

2009-07-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

Aku baru sedar bahawa setiap manusia dalam dunia ni bukan semuanya gembira sentiasa. Ada saja konflik dalam diri diorang, kalu sesiapa yang pandai cover tu bagusla, tapi aku memang tak pandai cover bila ada masalah. Jadi kepada kengkawan aku yang ada masalah, aku sedia menjadi telinga yang mendengar. Jangan malu atau segan untuk berkongsi masalah. Biasalah manusia ada masalah, takde apa yang perlu dimalukan...

Jadi kalu korang ade masalah, cuba bincang ngan sesiapa. Jangan simpan dalam hati. Tak ke mana masalah tu kalau dipendam. Jangan ingat korang sesorang je dalam dunia ni. Ada 6 billion manusia lagik tau. Hidup ni panjang lagi, kalu memang dah ajal memang tak boleh nak buat apa. Tapi hidup kena diteruskan. Hanya Akhirat yang kekal. Bersabarlah, aku ni pun sebenarnya ade gak problem tapi aku tetap berjalan ke depan. Hidup tak berenti beb.

Viva la Vida!!

Erm...awesome...awesomely bad...

2009-07-17T18:37:00.005+08:00

No, the picture on the right have nothing to do with this blog entry. No no. I only wanna show all of you that MJ still makes me go gaga and I end up paying quite a sum to get a frame picture to fit the TIME mag special commemorative edition of The King Of Pop. Haha, I finally changed back my profile picture on Facebook. I get over it that he's gone. Final farewell to the greatest artist of all time. My favourite quote from his song is Off The Wall:

So tonight, gotta leave that 9-to-5 upon the shelf/And just enjoy yourself/ Groove and let the madness in the music get to you/ Life's ain't so bad at all, if you live it off the wall

Alright, about this blog entry. Sorry if I make you guys waiting for my new entry. It's been a busy week for me. But hey weekend is here and oh hell, it's also gonna be a busy weekend for me. Assignment keeps following me wherever I go. Tired...

I haven't done any of the mid-term exam. I can't believe it's already mid-term. Gosh, the more I think bout it the more nervous I get...and last couple of days I got to prepare for the most ridiculous mid-term exam ever. Sit down and shut up, I'll tell you...

Have you ever heard the band named The Platters? I can sense more shaking than nodding. I don't blame you for not knowing this ancient band. They were popular in the 1960's, the decade where love is all around thanks to the hippies. And hey, I bet most of you were born in 1980's, the decade where ozone layer flattens due to excessive usage of hairspray (see Bon Jovi or Madonna during those days). So what's up with The Platters...here's why...

Mr. Bala figure out that writing is not so much fun at all. So he decided to pass around a couple of very retro songs (among them from The Platters, Chuck Berry, Elvis etc.) and he gonna make us sings and write on why we like the particular song. If I'm not mistaken, I'm in KLMU, not in some kind of music college...

Honestly I have no problems singing all those songs because I'm all retro. I love Elvis, Beatles, Rolling Stones, Cliff Richard and of course The Platters. But that doesn't make it right. Should an exam been done instead of singing? Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. Just weird...

It's worth 10%. All those singing and why-I-like-this song thingy. It's quite a lot. Come to think of it, I were right. Mr Bala is different. Unorthodox way in making us get a few marks. It's gonna be an experience of a lifetime I bet. A bad copy of American Idol audition tape?

Haha, we'll see!!

I'm a grown man for heaven's sake...

2009-07-12T14:12:00.004+08:00

I obviously have no idea it's gonna be this way. For me doing art & design means be avant-garde sometimes and do very classy or "high-brow" artwork. But heck, it doesn't turn up that way, for now at least. Do you have any idea how long I haven't touch or even bought a pencil sharpener?

I'm pretty sure it's almost a decade since I owned a pencil sharpener. But a few weeks ago I've broken that time period when I got myself a pencil sharpener. Since I have to sketch of course I would need a pencil and what does a pencil need everyone? No, not an eraser but that answer can be accepted as well. Come on everybody...spell it!!

P.E.N.C.I.L S.H.A.R.P.E.N.E.R!!!!

OK good. A picture included in this post is my assignment. Yes, I just bought that scissors and that glue. Does that picture bring back old memories? Haha, I'm quite sure when I took my diploma it's hard to think when the hell I would need a pair of scissors and glue. I always lent from my friends if I ever need those things. Of course, IT student do not need glue. For what? To stick a motherboard into the casing? I'm sure that's gonna bring you into psychiatric ward very soon. Very soon.

But owning those things triggered some flashbacks in my brain. I'm sure remember when I was obsessed with pencils. I must have the 2B black-and-yellow stripes pencil. No red pencils for me. Apa klass?? And of course, the classic rounded pencil sharpener with mirror behind it? Remember that? How about yellow wood ruler? Yea the one our teachers used to smack our palms when we didn't do our homework? Aahh...yes...those days...

But now I'm 22. Eventhough I haven't vote for general election (I'm not sure I will...) but my physical and my brain telling me I'm an adult. But still, an adult still need a pencil. For work. Or assignment. You see we can't escape our past. It's actually fun when we think back our past. Plus Ramadhan just around the corner. Time to relive the fun of being a kid!!!

Denga sikit-sikit udeh...

2009-07-11T00:21:00.011+08:00

Malam Khamis lalu aku tengah menyiapkan assignment yang agak bertimbun itu. Tengah naip apa itu epic, si Amirul Jehan tetiba muncul kat umah sewa lama aku tu. Pelik gak, nape tetiba dia datang ni...selalu takde pun...

Jehan, awat ang mai sini?

Dia pun jawabla..

Abang aku (rekaan semata-mata) mai UNISEL malam ni, Anwar Ibrahim...

Aku pun baru teingat yang pemimpin yang kontroversi Anwar Ibrahim nak datang UNISEL untuk wat ceramah. Bukan ceramah politik tapi ceramah motivasi...yelah tu...

Aku memang meluat politik ni. Cakap berapi, pastu habuk pun tarak. Tak abis-abis yakinkan rakyat diorang la best, sempoi etc tapi dalam parlimen gaduh macam budak kecik, lawan raja pastu sapa yang terkena? Rakyat jugak...

Aku kalu diikutkan memang malas nak gi ceramah tu tapi aku teringin gak nak dengar ape orang kampung aku ni nak cakap. Yelah, tajuk pidato kepimpinan, takde langsung politik dalam tajuk tu, jadi aku nak tengok sejauh mana kebenaran tajuk tu...

Sebelum Anwar sampai, adela skit-skit ceramah pembukaan dari ahli-ahli pembangkang seperti DUN Balik Pulau etc. Ramai orang kampung aku kat UNISEL malam ni. Dah ada baur-baur politik dalam ceramah diorang. Aku mula rasa tak selesa. Dan bila Anwar sampai, crowd jadi havoc. Biasala, bukan senang nak jumpa Anwar Ibrahim. Kalu artis senangla jumpa kat KL ni. Ko pegi je KLCC, Pavilion atau 1 Utama, sure nampak sekor dua...anyway...

Bila Anwar bercakap, aku rasa ade kebenarannya. Aku cuba untuk positifkan otak aku ni supaya jangan ingat ceramah ni pasal politik je. Tapi apakan daya, contoh yang diberikan sering ada ja disebut "si anu", "menteri ni" dan sebagainya. Memang aku dah agak ceramah ni serampang dua mata, politik satu dan "motivasi" satu. Takleh punye nak betul-betul ceramah pasal kepimpinan, mesti ada contoh politik punye...

Dan bila ada sesi soal-jawab, ada sorang mamat ni tanye pasal komen Anwar pasal ahli lompat parti. Jadi apa lagi tuan-tuan, terus laju je jawapannye politik aje. Nama-nama ahli politik ramai disebut, pastu dah terus hilang tujuan sebenar ceramah ni...mungkin ni la tajuk sebenar ceramah ni...macam mula-mula aku agak...

Aku sebenarnye malas nak komen pasal ceramah ni. Kite sume tahu tujuan sebenar ceramah ni diadakan. Aku pun awal-awal dah tau. Bagi aku amik ape yang bole aku terima, yang politik haram jadah tu aku langsung takmo denga. Propaganda sume tu. Aku rejek terus. No layan...

Oh ye, selamat hari jadi adik aku Zuhairi. Dah 18 tahun hang noo...sekarang ni amik Akaun kat Politeknik Seberang Perai Penang. Blaja rajin-rajin. Duit tu kalu short jugak tak tau aku nak komen, dah amik Akaun kan...hehehe...Present nanti la aku bagi. Aite?

Bunyi pelik...tapi benar...

2009-07-03T15:57:00.003+08:00

Selama aku hidup atas muka bumi ni, aku selalu pegi masjid untuk semayang Jumaat sebelum tok khatib bace khutbah Jumaat. Tapi yelah, kekadang aku lambat jugak, sampai dah abis khutbah baru nak terkejar-kejar masuk saf. Haha, tu pengaruh ex-housemate aku la (eceh, salahkan orang plak ko ye...)

Aku tetiap minggu akan lepak UNISEL, umah sewa lama aku. Itula rutin aku tetiap ujung minggu. Best gak lepak sini. Ade jugak ko nampak kehijauan rimba kat sini, kalu kat Sentul ko nampak bangunan tinggi menjulang je. Aku pun dok tingkat 11, jadi memang nampak abis la hutan konkrit kat KL tuh. Anyway, cakap pasal solat Jumaat ni...

Aku sampai Masjid UNISEL kul 1.30pm. Baru azan, jadi aku tak lambat (oh yeah!). Masa aku duduk berzikir (nak menipu pun agak-agak la wei), tok khatib pun naik atas mimbar nak start khutbah. Aku pun cuba nak kenal sape tok khatib tapi tak kenal (macam la aku ni selalu gi masjid). Tok khatib pun start baca khutbah...

Aku pada mulanya kehairanan. Adakah aku bermimpi? Tak kot...tapi awat tok khatib bace khutbah dalam English? Aku memang terkejut abis. Si Bala (letcurer English aku) dah brainwash tok khatib UNISEL untuk cakap English ke? Tidak, tidak...

Aku memang pelik gila denga khutbah dalam English. Rasa macam orientasi dulu bila ada sorang mamat ni wat opening speech kat budak-budak baru, haram tak paham. Aku English OK tapi bila denga khutbah dalam B.I aku jadi langsung tak paham. Ntah ape dier sembang kat depan tu, naik ngantuk aku...

Itulah adik-adik sekalian, bila khutbah dah dibace dalam Bahasa Inggeris, jemaah lain abis tak paham. Termasuk aku ni. Aku tak bantah khutbah dalam English, tapi rasa pelik la. Dah tak paham. Kena bawak kamus ngan thesaurus si Bala minggu depan la jawabnye...

p/s: Kelas Bala denga ade minggu depan...bole la aku gelak sakan lagi...

My time is meaningless...

2009-07-01T23:43:00.004+08:00

Aku takde mood nak taip panjang-panjang. Sila baca notis di sebelah untuk mengetahui sebab ape aku takde mood. Esok takde klas jugak aku nak refund!

(Macam la aku dah baya yuran....). Hehe...

Lepak Pavilion la jawabnye...petang lepak Ampang pulak...

Gosh...he's so funny!

2009-06-29T19:51:00.007+08:00

For most people starting Monday means hell to them, especially those who working right now (Afi, Fatma Shada, Qasieh etc.) but for me Monday would be the day that I'm looking forward every week. Why you ask? It's because Mr. Bala my English lecturer will give his "crazy talk" again. OMG, there he goes when he entered the class... For this week, a lot of things came up to his mind. Let's go through it y'all...let me get my notepad ya...

OK, let's see...

a) We learn about "high-brow". Know what that means? It means classy. Mr Bala give one example about one women he know that very high-brow. Whatever she do she always do it in style, even eating.

b) He loves badminton. He always wants us to pronounce correctly every English words. He gave very hilarious example on how Indian pronounced "in" and "out" during badminton. So does Kelantanese say it. This is what he said (approximately lah):

You know how Indian pronounced in and out during badminton match? Outte for out and inne for in (please pronounce the italic words with pure Indian accent to obtain the funny part). For Kelantanese lue and dale...Lape semile (lapan sembilan)....

Honestly, I look like an idiot laughing by myself now...jeez...move on...

c) He gave us one idiom with the accompanying sad story. The idiom was "She wrote him Dear John letter". That means broke up with him. He then told a story about Bonnie. He was one handsome man and a lecturer. He had a girlfriend named Mimi. They were very happy together. But one day she wrote him a Dear John letter (you see?). Bonnie ended up being an alcoholic and one day he drop dead on the railroad. Very sad....

d) Mr Bala favourite food is steam fish with ginger. He told us...with tauchu ye...

Well that's it for now folks. Consider yourself unlucky you never meet this incredible lecturer. He teach me English, yet provide me laughter every week. What a great Monday!

Gone too soon...

2009-06-26T22:41:00.004+08:00

When I woke up this morning, it never thought I would be reading headlines "Michael Jackson died at 50". It was utterly shocking. I thought it was only a rumour that always happen in Hollywood. But when Yahoo! page displayed the story, it was devastating. I can't believe one of the most loved music icon left this world without any warning. I still can't believe he's gone.

I knew Michael Jackson since I were a child. His first video that caught my attention was "Ghosts", 40 minutes-plus epic that listed in Guinness World Records for the longest music video. I watched that video over and over and it introduced me to the one of the most influential music icon of all time. His lifestyle never caught my attention and so does his never-ending court problems. His elaborate music videos and infectious music that really put MJ deep inside my heart. No other male artists can change the world like he is. Sure there are more great male legends like Bob Marley and Elvis Presley but they never make us realize what really happening to this world. Try to listen to "Man In The Mirror" and "Earth Song".

I will forever remember today, Friday 26th of June 2009 (Malaysian date) the day Michael Jackson died. Now I think I know how the world felt when Elvis or Bob Marley died. Honestly I still can't believe this ridiculous truth. He will forever remain in my heart as the King Of Pop.

Who are you? Oh, Mr Satis...

2009-06-23T20:33:00.003+08:00

I strongly believe that when two or more strangers meet each other they introduce themselves. That's what make the difference between strangers and friends, right? Not in my class, for the lecturers at least. Here's the lowdown...

I've been in class for almost two weeks now (almost because lecturers keep cancelling classes, duh) and most the lecturers I met introduce themselves to class and vice-versa. But there are exception for two lecturers, Mr Satis and Mr Bala. First, let's start with Mr Satis.

Mr Satis is a lecturer, and of course his duty is teaching. But I don't call his method is teaching. It's more like keeping it to himself rather than sharing it with class. You see, Mr Satis wasn't even introduce himself to class, yet we barely know when he started the class. All I know is that when he typing something and mumbling all alone means that the class has already kicked off. Better get on that train fast. I got on, but mostly lost on where the train is heading. To heaven? Doesn't look like it. I simply say my RM24,000 on this degree is definitely not 100% worth it. More like RM2.40 perhaps...

Mr Bala, hmm...I can say he is my favourite lecturer. I remember he started the class talking like crazy and believe it or not, he never introduce himself either. A few times he mentioned "Mr Bala" during his crazy talk and I say "Oh, his name is Bala". But he suprised me for being vulgar and in-your-face attitude.

He touched a couple of "sensitive" subjects like how non-Muslim prays and mentioning condom as a reference. Shocking, I know but above all, he's a breath of fresh air. Something new, something vulgar. I really want to see him more than once a week. He teach me being vulgar is allowed as long as you have a very concrete reason to be that way.

Way to go Mr Bala. As for Mr Satis, I don't know what to do. I might end up regretting paying him to teach me something I already know. Darn it!

Aku telah kembali...

2009-06-19T21:09:00.003+08:00

Bila aku tau yang kelas hari Jumaat dah diubah ke hari Isnin, aku jadi hepi semacam. Yelah, kalu memang dah ubah maknanya kelas aku ada 4 hari seminggu, jadi aku cuti 3 hari seminggu. Huyoo, best gile camtu. Tup-tup memang betul kelas aku ada 4 hari ja. Aku pun ada macam-macam plan dalam kepala otak ni. Nak round satu KL la, nak balik Penang la (hehe, homesick tak abis lagi la beb), nak lepak umah Ame la (sebab ade TV) dan lain-lain. Tapi bila fikirkan balik, suma tu aku dah buat. Tetiba aku teringat kat UNISEL. Memandangkan kawan-kawan aku masih amik degree kat sana baik aku lepak sana ja untuk weekend ni. Ini satu idea yang bagus.

Malam Khamis aku terus bagitau Syafiq (roomate aku) yang aku akan lepak kat UNISEL dari hari Jumaat sampai Ahad. Dier angguk je. Aku terus pack barang-barang essential yang aku perlukan bila tidur umah orang. Pagi Jumaat bila sume dah blah pegi kelas aku terus amik bas ke Bestari Jaya.

Dalam perjalanan tu memang nostalgik. Aku memang rasa aku ni sebenarnya nak balik umah asal aku, bukan gi umah kengkawan. Yelah, 3+ tahun aku spend kat UNISEL tu. Rasa dah macam umah kedua pulak. Time semayang Jumaat kat masjid UNISEL memang buat aku termenung panjang. Dah lama aku tinggalkan UNISEL ye. Rasa macam semalam aku baru masuk. Emo macam biasa tuan-tuan.

Rumah sewa aku masih macam dulu. Walaupun aku duduk satu semester ja banyak kenangan yang umah tu pegang. Masa aku struggle wat final projek untuk diploma aku memang tempat ni la aku emo, marah, angin etc. Haha, bila terkenang balik memang best UNISEL ni.

Sekarang ni aku tengah lepak kat library UNISEL. Dah tak macam dulu dah tempat ni. Dulu air-con asyik breakdown ja, pastu kemudahan kureng giler. Sekarang ni memang cambest. Rasa macam aku ni masih seorang student UNISEL. Memang langsung tak sedar diri la. Esok aku nak pegi tempat faveret aku masa dok UNISEL ni, iaitu....One Utama!! Geng-geng aku mesti dah dapat teka. Haha...itu je aku tau pun.

Korang tau tak nilai duit?

2009-06-16T18:12:00.003+08:00

Aku bila time boring memang tak reti nak dok diam. Pantang ada masa ngan duit mula nak merayap. Tengah ari tadi ada kelas yang batal. Yelah minggu pertama kan, mesti ada kelas pun macam takda. Kalu ikutkan memang aku nak balik sebab semalam haram aku langsung tak online. Tapi apakan daya, pukul 2pm ada pulak kelas. Ceh, memang tak suspek langsung depa ni arrange kelas. Jadi aku ada dalam 4 jam nak kill. Nanti bila aku dah jejak kaki kat umah jadik malas pulak nak keluar. Tak boleh jadi ni.

Aku dengan pantas amik keputusan nak lepak kat kedai buku Times kat Pavilion KL. Yelah nerd macam aku ni nak lepak mana lagi selain kedai buku. Tak kedai buku, aku lepak kedai CD jek. Haha. Anyway....

Aku pun jalan-jalan la area Pavilion Kl tuh. Pergh, aku tengok kiri kanan jadi takut. Bukan takut hantu, tapi takut tengok jenama -jenama yang ada butik kat Pavilion ni. Marc Jacobs, Versace, Prada, Gucci dan paling stylo butik dier Ralph Lauren. Cakap pasal Ralph Lauren, aku ada masuk Parkson lepas tu. Ada designer labels bahagian untuk budak-budak. Puh, budak-budak tak tau apa pun dah dapat pakai designer labels. Gamba kat atas ni salah satu contoh yang mengatakan bertuah badan kalu dapat parents kaya lagi raya. Cuba korang cek price tag kat baju tu. Jenama Ralph Lauren, untuk budak 5+. Baju polo bodo camni pun harga dekat RM350. Duit banyak tu bole wat belanja aku setengah bulan kat KL ni. Huhu, memang ada manusia tak tau nilai duit.

Aku kat sini bukan nak menghentam sesiapa yang kaya boleh belanja duit tanpa fikir. Tapi kebanyakan orang aku kenal tak kaya. Jadi kan best kalu aku kaya. Heheh. Aku dah dok KL ni pun pikir banyak kali nak beli apa-apa. Masa aku kat Pavilion ade gak singgah GSC sana. Aku teringat time aku keja dulu. Best ja tengok movie free. Sekarang ni kena bayar. Dah la Transformers II nak keluar. Cemana la keadaan GSC Queensbay Mall...

Ala nak emo plak...dah-dah...

Aku rasa pelik la...

2009-06-08T02:06:00.004+08:00

Bila aku dah sampai kat KL dua hari lepas, aku rasa rindu sangat kat Penang. Bila dah biasa wat sesuatu dah tetiba kita stop, rasa pelik macam sesuatu daripada aku dah hilang. Rasa homesick tu sangat la kuat. Pergh, rasa macam nak lari balik Penang hari tu jugak. Teringat rupa-rupa yang aku kenal lagi sayang, family aku, family GSC, saudara-mara aku...uwaaa...

Tapi aku tau takkan sebab homesick ja aku nak lari balik. Macam tak masuk akal. Aku ni sebab dah terbiasa. Aku dah stay Penang lebih setahun lepas wat diploma. Jadi memang tak hairan kalu aku ni homesick tahap gaban bila dah kat KL ni.

Jadi apa aku wat untuk mengelakkan diri aku balik Penang tanpa sebab? Aku cari kengkawan aku kat KL ni. Tujuan diorang ni supaya aku lupa yang aku ni homesick. Nasib baik besfren aku si Amirul Hadi a.k.a ame_aok sudi meneman aku sepanjang dua hari lepas. Malam Sabtu aku ikut Ame balik Shah Alam tempat dia tinggal sekarang ni. Aku ingat Sentul ngan Shah Alam dekat, tapi rupanya jauh gak. Naik lenguh buntut aku ni naik moto 125Z ngan dia.

Masa aku lepak ngan dia perasaan ni masih macam tu, rindu tak abis-abis. So dia pun nasihat aku macam-macam, tapi hati aku keras, susah nak telan nasihat dia tu. Dan tido semalam umah dia, aku plan nak singgah Low Yat bila balik nanti. Sebelum kami bertolak Ame dapat call daripada Kecik a.k.a Jehan, satu sorang besfren kami.

Innalillah, nenek Jehan dah meninggal. Aku masa tu terkejut langsung tak boleh berkata-kata. Ame kemudian cadangkan kami lawat si Jehan tengok cemana keadaan dia. Kami pun bertolak gi umah nenek Jehan. Bila kami sampai, aku tengok mata Jehan merah ja, kesian aku tengok. Kami sembang-sembang jap, sebab si Ame kena antar aku balik Sentul masa tu jugak. Kami pun tinggalkan Jehan terus heading Low Yat.

Dah sampai Low Yat, aku wat keputusan nak pegi Times Square dulu. Bila dah masuk Borders, aku dapat rasa feeling happy yang aku ada masa aku amik diploma dulu datang balik. Malam sebelum tu Ame dah cakap kalu aku nak lupakan homesick tu aku kena remind diri aku apa yang best kat KL ni. Baru masa tu aku tau apa maksud Ame tu. Borders Times Square tu memang salah satu tempat faveret aku kat KL.

Dah puas meronda, memang aku lupa abis masalah aku. Syukur kepada Allah s.w.t. Aku dah malas nak fikir homesick yang langsung tak bagi aku apa-apa solution. Sekarang ni apa yang aku tau bila ada masalah aku akan try take it easy dan berkongsi ngan kawan-kawan. Sure jadi ringan masalah tu...

It's finally here...

2009-06-06T05:19:00.003+08:00

Well 6 hours ago I was having one of the most expensive dinner with my brother Zuhairi. It was filled with sadness but nobody can tell that. All I know was it should be memorable, since I'm going to KL for my degree. I still can't believe tonight would be my last day in Penang. I've spent a year here and still feels like yesterday I came back from KL after diploma.

I had to leave early because I was getting emo by the minute. The moment Karthik ask this question...

Izuan, hang OK tak?

I know I had to get out of there. I can't really hide my feelings. You read me like a book. But it wasn't that bad. Saying goodbye never my best asset. I tried to keep it casual when I said goodbye to most people in GSC. But the hardest would be Zuhairi, Yusri, Danial, Andri and of course Ms Grace. I gave Ms Grace a book as a farewell present. Honestly I will never repay her. If she never gave me this job, I would never know them. It would be a bummer to miss all these friendship in my life.

I finally convinced Zuhairi to either to continue his study in UNISEL or KLMU. I really hope he choose either one because time is running out and I want him to have a place to study since everybody's leaving for studies. He can't miss out. Never.

I feel like I've done my part before leaving. I know I can do more but I did my best. Six months spent in GSC is definitely time well spend. Right now I'm on my way to KL, which only miles away (not exactly) and new experience is waiting for me. I'll let you know how is it later. For now Taylor Swift finally got me with Love Story. I took me forever to download pop version of that song since I have very strict "no-country" policy. Guess I have to rethink about that policy...no lah...that policy still standing. No even for Taylor Swift...

That's it...

2009-05-31T02:34:00.003+08:00

Hari aku yang agak indah telah dirosakkan oleh Sam bodoh tu lagi. Semasa aku tengah bizi menaip panduan untuk steward Ms Grace berkata sesuatu kepada aku.

Izuan, mulai esok bawa complete uniform ye, just in case

Aku yang pada mulanya kehairanan pun tanya la.

Why Ms Grace?

Dia pun jawab selamba.

Mr Sam already asked about your attire. If you work more than 8 hours then you have to wear your uniform

Argh!! Aku pulak kena. Terus-terang memang aku angin. Aku ni dah berenti. Aku datang ni pun sebab kesian takda orang nak wat 5's tu. Sekarang ni dia nak aku pakai uniform pulak? Pehal ni, aku keja freelance. Lantak aku la nak pakai bikini ke, baju keja ofis ke. Makin tensen aku.

Sebelum aku dapat berita buruk tu ada lagi berita buruk aku terima. Pukul 9 lebih Ms Grace announce kat suma orang yang sesiapa yang keja lebih 6 jam kena amik break 1 jam. Sam bodoh tu dah bising sebab ada budak break lebih daripada sejam. Last-last dia amik kesempatan ini dengan mewajibkan suma orang break satu jam. Pergh, memang takda perikemanusiaan langsung Sam ni. Korang penah denga tak kalu korang wat taik ngan orang takkan orang tu nak wat baik ngan korang kan? Sam biol ni ingat nak wat camni GSC ni boleh maju la. Nak jimat cost sampai kacau periuk nasi staff.

Aku dah cakap ngan Ms Grace kalu celaka tu ada problem ngan aku meh cakap depan-depan ngan aku. Tak payah nak pakai messenger girl untuk bagitau aku. Aku masa tu terus shutdown netbook aku pastu punch then blah jumpa geng-geng aku. Diorang pun memang tak puas hati pasal breaktime tu. Tapi kesimpulan yang kami dapat ialah orang tua tu memang takkan berubah. Lagu The Fray yang baru tajuknya Never Say Never.

In this case, always say never. ALWAYS...

Adios GSC QBay. Selagi Sam ada takkan aku keja dah kat situ.

Ego...

2009-05-30T13:12:00.004+08:00

I should have known this one coming. I don’t feel like doing it yet still preparing myself to get through it one more day. Am I insane? I beg to differ but my actions do a complete 180 degrees. One more day at the GSC is OK for me but since I’m going to KL, I dunno if I’m gonna miss it.

When I arrived, I asked myself what I should do today. Yesterday was a mess. Ms Grace wanted to buy me dinner but I refused to accept it but did not have the courage to say no. I just simply pretended to be sick. It looks easy and believable. But only God knows how I feel at that time. I simply have a very high ego. It never feels great when somebody buy me dinner, lunch etc. It makes me feel awful and I dunno, it is an uncomfortable feeling. This ego sometimes feel great when it gets what it wants, but another part of me feeling very guilty and shouldn’t turn down people offers. Ms Grace just wants to treat me dinner because of what I did to GSC. I don’t see I contributed so much but she knew I did a lot for GSC. I love giving, but never love to accept.

Yesterday Katrhik called me several times during their dinner asking how I feel. Argh, guilt filled my bloodstream instantly when I heard those words. Either way it didn’t make me feel great. I picked one and hell, wish I were never there. You see people, we all have egos. It will feel satisfied when you follow what it wants but what you really get? Pure satisfaction over what?
Nothing. Nada. Illek…the end

Not again...

2009-05-24T20:27:00.004+08:00

Huh...time aku sampai GSC ja aku dah ternampak muka yang aku langsung tak suka. Pergh, rasa nak lari balik ja. Adoilaa...awatla si Sam ni ada kat pintu masuk GSC tu. Memang spoil mood btui la. Dia pun bila nampak muka aku trus pandang arah lain. Punya tak suka ni (ikut interpretasi aku la...). Eleh, aku pun tak suka la ngan ang Sam. Pirahhh!!

Aku masuk kat dalam MOD ja aku dah dapat rasa ada masalah. Tup-tup memang btul. Notis untuk Alien vs Monsters yang aku wat dua hari lepas telah direject oleh granpa Sam. Hoho...memang aku dah agak kena rejek pun dua ari lepas. Bukanlah hasil keja aku jauh dari berkualiti (aku gerenti puas hati) tapi cam biasa la si Sam tu memang tak bole nak puas hati dengan apa pun. Dah tau, dah tau...

Aku stay kat GSC untuk 2 jam sahaja. Aku tak tahan tengok orang tua tu. Tak aman hidup aku. Sekarang ni aku tgh lepak kat Old Town Coffee...hirup kopi O kaw sambil type blog. THIS IS LIFE!!!

What do you see? No, not that. Try again...

2009-05-24T15:31:00.005+08:00

Today at 2pm I was flipping through Astro channels just wondering what the hell am I gonna watch. While flipping, I saw my favourite TV show, Top Gear appeared on now showing list. I quickly press OK and there was one of the greatest TV show of all-time.

Top Gear has always been my fave because the quirky reviews (much like Stuff mag) and very commentive reviewers. Before this I never thought I will ever get what these reviewers or critics talk about. I just couldn't understand what they see when they critic or praise a car. I only see a car and hey, it's a car and that's it. There are no flare, passion or love in it. But that was then. Today I finally get what they're talking all these years.

You see, the world is more than meets the eye. There are more than what you literally see. But of course most of us are too naive to understand. We always say that we know ourselves very well but do we? I don't think so. It's too much confident that blinded us all from knowing ourselves and our surroundings' better. That's why I wanna get into art when doing my degree. I wanna see more than meet my eyes. So Top Gear, thanks for your wake up call. It's not just what we see, it's how we feel too. Take sometime to understand a situation, then you'll see what really happen. The truth are in front of you, dig deeper then you'll find it.

I found mine...what about you?

When you say jump, I say how high?

2009-05-21T13:31:00.006+08:00

Korang tau tak gamba apa kat atas ni? Haa, ni la gamba poster-poster kat dalam bilik stor kat GSC . Korang mungkin nampak tersusun rapi dan sedap mata memandang tapi sebenarnya poster-poster ni langsung tak tersusun. Lepas pakai just main campak je. Tak kira berapa banyak atau nak susun ikut movie. Jadi semalam aku dah tak tau nak buat apa since keja aku nak dekat abis (adela skit lagi...tinggal lain hari la wat) jadi aku volunteer nak susun poster-poster ni kat bilik stor. Nampak macam senang je tapi ya ampun susah nak mampos. Poster berlambak pastu nak susun satu-satu memang gerenti wat aku tensen untuk 2 jam berikutnya. Bila pikirkan balik kan bagus kalu sebelum ni ingat nak susun. Ni haram nak ingat, yang aku tau main letak la lepas pakai. Nak wat cemana, menda nak jadi kan...

Oh, kalu ikutkan bilik poster ni macam bilik harta karun. Korang just tutup mata pastu wish satu movie poster yang korang nak. Mesti ada punya. Aku yang tolong susun ni berpinar biji mata tengok poster yang cun lagi sempoi seperti Watchmen, Twilight ngan Angels & Demons. Puhh, mau aku angkut balik ja suma poster ni. Tak payah penat-penat susun, tak gitu? Tapi mana bleh wat camtu, kalu bole memang dah lama aku buat.

Kalu ikutkan aku dah wat macam-macam keja semalam. Susun poster, beli stationaries, wat keja hiasan, tukar poster, ish banyak btul la. Dah macam keja balik dah status aku ni, takda pun rilek macam orang dah resign. Keja dok jalan jugak, takda pun berenti. Hmm...apa pun aku wat duit tak kira la apa status pun. Janji poket ada duit. Ada duit baru makes the world go round. Kalu tak, gigit jari la beb.

I can't take this anymore...

2009-05-19T22:45:00.005+08:00

Tadi seperti biasa aku menghabiskan masa aku kat GSC untuk 5's tu. Aku dah tau kalu orang tua Sam tu ada mesti kena bambu punya, tak kira la salah aku ke tak. Sepanjang aku wat keja kat situ keadaan aku amat tak tenteram. Rasa nak lari balik ja, tido. Tapi aku fikir aku tengah cari duit, bukan nak melepak tanpa sebab. Bila aku nampak muka dia keadaan aku memang jadi tak tentu arah, tak aman. Aku mesti pegi jauh dari orang tua tu. Masa tadi kami ada dalam bilik Manager On Duty aku terus keluar bila dia masuk. Tapi sebelum aku keluar dia ada pulak soal pasal rubber stamp yang aku buat sebelum ni. Adalah menda dia bising tapi aku jawab selamba aje. Tak payah takut-takut ngan dia ni. Saja la tu nak marah aku tanpa sebab munasabah. Apa kes??!

Petang tu aku, Karthik ngan Azura tengah dok bincang pasal decoration yang perlu dibuat untuk Customer Service Room. Tetiba grandpa ni masuk tanya pasal screwdriver yang dia letak kat stationary holder dalam bilik MOD. Dia then bising pasal 5's yang kalu wat kena tanya dia dulu sebelum ubah apa-apa. Gila betul la...kalu asyik tanya hang Sam bodo sampai bila pun tak abis. Cakap biar fikir dulu ye. Jangan main sembur ja. Aku tadi memang angin dan dah abis diskus aku terus angkat beg pastu balik ngan Zuhairi.

Tak tahan aku nak duduk lelama kat situ. Nanti yang tak salah pun kena bambu. Adios!!

Spoiler...doesn't really help...

2009-05-14T15:09:00.007+08:00

A few hours ago I watched one of the most anticipated film (for me at least) of the year, Dan Brown's Angels & Demons. Honestly I never finished the novel because I was too distracted with my work and my life. I don't have time for it. But right now I'm glad I never finished the novel. I'll tell you why...

I bought the novel several months ago and as predicted, it was good. The excitement and feel of adrenaline rush were there, plus Illuminati has always been a good plot for any movie or book. I think I got the whole story in my head but I failed to to that. It's only a few chapters to end the book, but it never happened.

When I know the release date of the movie getting nearer, I still didn't try to finish the book. I rather do the "voluntary" work like again the 5's thing etc. Now I know why...

This afternoon when I sat down in the cinema hall, I bet it will be awesome. I can't wait till the trailers to end and the movie starting. But 10 minutes into the movie, I wonder if I watched the wrong movie. It was different from the book. Not another Twilight...

Since the book is the source for the movie, it was predictable. But the movie too far been sugar-coated and Robert Langdon find it easy to find the next clue. It was disappointing. I guess I should watch the movie then read the novel. And why I'm glad I never finished the book? It's because when I watch the part where I haven't read, I got excited not knowing what's coming up. I always love spoilers, but this time I'm happy I dunno one single thing at the end. At least I got excited on some part of the movie. But one line from the movie that got me shaking my head like crazy.

"Religion is not perfect because humans are not perfect"

I beg to differ. For me my faith has always been perfect in every way. Only humans prefer to be imperfect. No question 'bout it baby.

MARA oh MARA...

2009-05-12T06:50:00.005+08:00

Akhirnya semalam aku berjaya menghantar borang MARA aku yang dah lama terbengkalai kat Cosmopoint. Aku pegi sana awal-awal sebab aku masuk keja pagi kul 10. Kalu ikutkan memangla aku ni malas gila nak gi sana. Tapi ni demi masa depan aku. Takleh nak malas-malas sangat. Jadi...Sappy...Go!!!

Dah sampai sana si Neesha (minah India yang responsible untuk pendaftaran) bagitau aku satu berita buruk...

"MARA funds has been frozen until notified date"

Adoilaa...awat la time ni jugak depa nak bekukan tabung MARA tuh. Shit! Sekarang ni aku kalu nak terima berita buruk kena pepagi. Baru ja bukak mata dah denga menda-menda yang menyakitkan hati. Lepas tu si Neesha pas kat aku satu borang yang aku amat kenal...PTPTN!!!

Argh...PTPTipu! Bertemu kita lagik. Aku ingat cukupla time kita bertemu masa aku wat diploma dulu. Rupanya untung la hang makan duit bunga banyak-banyak. Aku ngan muka sedih amik borang tu dengan hati yang memang tak suka dan meluat abis.

Aku memang dah berangan bila wat degree nanti ta payah la nak pikir pasal hutang yang bertambah tanpa diminta. Tapi apakan daya, MARA tetiba nak freeze pulak. Apa aku boleh buat...boring...

Power to the people!!

2009-05-09T13:19:00.011+08:00

I've always hate politics. These guys just like to brag anything but true about themselves, promise you the world and after election's over, they're nowhere to be seen. Oh, it's so classic. It's really predictable what they gonna do next in order to gain power. Before election, they wasting money by campaigning and with "sudden" improvement or development such as building new school or repair our so terrible roads. After that, you only gonna see another "development" in the next election. How the hell we gonna be a "well developed nation" by 2020? More like 3020 maybe...

Why I'm bringing this topic? It's because what happen to Perak politics condition. I bet you guys read or heard about it and don't you think these politicians bared their stupidity and selfishness out loud? I can't believe that educated and probably or supposedly well behave people could act like that. Plus keep a prince waiting for 5 hours? That's just rude. In Penang we don't have kings or princes but aren't all of us need to respect our kings or princes? It's not rocket science per se, it's just plain common sense.

Now it's clear that people will do anything including being rude just to have power. How come we can't be together no matter what our political views are? Is this the world we gonna live for the rest of our lives? Now I'm worried. I'm 22 and I can vote but if this the reality of our leaders, I rather stay at home during election day. P. Diddy might have the Vote Or Die campaign in the US for Presidential Election but if the same campaign done here, I'm still not convinced. If I vote, I'll die, and if I didn't vote, I'm still gonna die. Hmm...

The song Imagine by the late John Lennon is for me the best song ever written and eventhough the song was written in the 70's it's well fitted with today political condition. I don't agree with some parts of the song (we still need our religion) but the song forces us to unite. Just forget about our differences, we still human for heaven's sake. Why do we have to use our differences to separate ourselves from others? Nobody's perfect.

You are not better that others. We are all created equal. But power really destroying the mankind. It's one sad truth we have to swallow.

Haih...masalah ja start dari hang...

2009-05-07T11:53:00.007+08:00

Semalam dalam pukul 6.30 pm aku ngan Karthik (Crew Leader), Zulkarnain (Supervisor) dengan Azura (Crew Leader gak) pi meeting ngan orang tua/uncle/atuk Sam (ni la Boss besa GSC tempat aku keja) untuk diskus pasal progress projek 5'S yang aku macam gila dok try perabih. Kami memang dah tau kalu jumpa dia ni masalah dari selesai terus takda jalan keluar.

Macam-macam aku dok explain kat orang tua tu. Susah beb. Macam cakap ngan Bangla tak paham bahasa Melayu ngan English. Aku cakap camni, dia cakap lagu tu. Bila orang bagi cadangan, kalu ang tak mau at least bagi la jalan lain. Ni takat "Oh I don't agree. Bla bla bla...pastu suruh kami cari jalan lain yang jeng jeng...TAK PAYAH KELUAR DUIT...

Bodoh gila orang tua ni. Nak improve tempat keja tapi kedekut nak mampus. Dah la aku wat keja 5'S ni tak dibayar (btui aku tak tipu) pastu nak mintak budget beli menda-menda lain tak boleh. Aku bersyukur tak dapat bapak macam dia ni. Kalu la aku dapat bapak macam dia ni memang dah lama aku mati kebulur.

Aku ni bukanlah closed-minded, tapi boleh ke nak wat improvement tanpa sacrifice atau investment? Orang kalu nak berjaya pun kena gak laburkan masa ngan duit untuk berjaya. Ni takda apa nak invest, tapi nak berjaya. Pelik...ari tu senang ja approve...

Heloo Sam, check whether YOUR EAR AND MOTHERF***ING STUPID HEAD ARE ON??! Better turn it on before it's too late...

I used to like rain...

2009-05-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

This is my second blog entry for today. Actually I wanted to just post one entry per day but since I've got nothing to do and my fingers are itching to type something, perhaps I should give an entry a go. For the record I HAVE some task to finish up (my MARA form, remember?) but I'm too lazy to do it. My gosh, Saturday really ruined my life...for now.

I want to go to GSC to finish up my project but I couldn't. Why? Because it's raining. Hell, I never feel this mad when raining. I like rain, if I'm indoors of course. But that feeling isn't here now. Just boring , alone and yes, it's Saturday night. I should have a night out with the boys. I planned to do so but rain, you come uninvited. Heavily uninvited.

The question is, will I ever go out tonight? I want to, but you have to stay tuned to find out.
Argh, it doesn't look so good. Place your bet on your way out. Thanks

Night life...full with smoke...

2009-05-02T15:01:00.010+08:00

Keluar malam bukanlah satu menda yang aku suka buat. Dah penat keja nak keluar melepak pulak memang agak susah tapi kalu tak lepak macam takda life pulak. Semalam geng GSC terdiri daripada (awat formal semacam ja ni?) bebudak Consessions (jual benda makan) ngan Stewards (tukang koyak tiket/bukak pintu hall) ajak lepak. Aku pun tak mau lepas terus join. Ni gambaq kat sebelah ni sebelum kami gi lepak. (Sila klik gambar untuk lebih jelas). Macam-macam posing dok ada. Seperti hangpa boleh tengok ada nama sekali. Minat kontek aku...heheh...

Dah punch-out kul 2 pagi lebih (dable pay bebeh ari nih!!) kami trus gi lepak. Ni antara kronologi malam/pagi tuh:

2.15 am: Usaha memujuk Yusri untuk join kami tak berjaya walaupun dikutuk "tak bercampoq ngan orang" oleh Fadzil. Aku sebelum balik ada gak try tapi Yusri tetap tak mau...

2.30 am: Kami satu konvoi semasa lalu USM ternampak 2 orang gadis termangu-mangu start moto. Fadzil sanggup patah balik nak tolong tetiba depa dah start moto pastu trus blah. Sangap encik Fadzil kita tuan-tuan. Ada sorang brader berenti depan kami (nak tolong jugak la kot) tapi last-last dia blah bagi kami makan asap. Cis!! Tau la moto kami takda asap. Kalu tak...

3.00 pagi: Sampai kat Kassim Mustafa. Dah lapaq gila nih (lapaq ja, tak gila) kami ramai-ramai serbu kaunter mintak nasik. Aku yang baru dapat gaji (heheh) melantak nasik minyak ngan ayam tandoori. Campur teh O RM7 sahaja. Sahaja! Abis duit aku... Dah abis makan tetiba Subhan (takda dalam gambar) mengadu nak memerut. Dia pun balik untuk tunaikan kewajipan. Tinggal kami seperti dalam gambar...

3.35 am: Dah full kami berangkat tinggalkan Kassim Mustafa untuk lepak kat Gurney Drive (lepak tepi laut ja). Masa kami lalu satu area clubbing (tak ingat nama jalan tu) lagi tetiba moto Afiq ngan Zuhairi dihimpit rapat oleh satu kapel naik Kancil. Aku shock la sat. Keta tu then blah macam tu ja. Menurut Fadzil keta tu marah sebab Afiq makan jalan depa. Aku pun tak berapa perasan. Move on shall we?

3.40 am: Kami sampai kat Gurney. Dah nak landing tetiba ujan pulak. Kami kena la retreat kat McD bawah Sunrise Tower. Sambil tunggu ujan berenti sempat la isap udara tercemar ngan posing untuk tatapan. Sila rujuk gambar lagi sekali. Dah puas kami masuk McD main kad terup (aku tak reti, mula nengok je). Gelak sakan sampai aku naik letih dengan depa nih.

5.00 am: Dah puas gelak sama-sama kami pun berangkat pulang. Sebelum balik tu sempat la round-round area town. Aku dah nak terkucil nih. Kena tahan sampai balik umah. Seksa.

5.30am: Sampai dah umah. Well cambest jugak lepak ramai-ramai. Tapi letih jangan kira la. Kena tahan bladder lagi satu. Another round of lepak? I'm on it!!

Adoi...dah dekat ni...

2009-04-30T14:05:00.000+08:00

Oh no. Dateline for my 5's thing is getting closer by the day. I wonder and also very worried if I ever finished the whole thing on time. Things getting better but time always been my worst enemy. The situation is no so good because all blockbuster movies are starting to hit our cinema so less time to spend on our project.

I arrived home at 2-something am last night (or last morning?) and my head filled with problemos. Well I got a team but how am I gonna ask them for help? I am very proud person and getting help is definitely not my expertise. I rather do things on my own and I don't have to wait for people to finish something. I'm also a bit of a control-freak. I want what I want. That's it. But hell, this proud thing does not result one great life. It sucks.

My very-helpful manager Ms Grace try to convince me to ask them for help but when I tried, it's never been enjoyable. But at least I tried. Never say no for sure.

Today I will try to finish everything that I can.

P/s: Dear proud, please let down your guard. Help me to finish this project. Help!

I was among the first!!!

2009-04-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

Semalam aku gi keja cam biasa, tetiba sebelum punch kad (ye, kami masih pakai punch kad yang retro tuh) aku ternampak sesuatu kat jadual keja aku. CIMB Special Screening X-Men Wolverine ditulih kat situ. Pergh! Movie yang sebelum ni bocor kat Internet nak tayang kat GSC sebelum tempat lain kat dunia nih (aku agak-agak ja). Macam World Premiere dah ni. Kena join nih.

Tapi sebelum aku kena sembang ngan bos besa aku pasal nak mintak bajet untuk beli barang-barang untuk improve-kan bahagian jual tiket (nama tempat tu Box Office ye) tu. Sebelum aku "sembang" ngan mamat tu rasa macam nak pengsan pun ada sebab sebelum ni aku dah kena "kaw" ngan mamat tu. Aku wat biasa dan sembang la ngan mamat tu, yang peliknya dia langsung tak banyak soal ngan aku pastu trus approve apa yang kitorang mintak (kecuali satu menda je dia reject...adelaaa....). Satu bala dah lepas, aku nak tengok X-Men!!

Mungkin ari tu dah takda ong untuk aku. Bila aku nengok jadual bekerja, aku tak ditugaskan untuk menjaga hall yang tayang movie tuh. Argh! Apa nih!! Tadi bukan main seronok nak nengok movie baru, last-last tak boleh plak. Siot!! Esok aku kena jual tiket, memang tak merasa la nak tengok. Hampeh!

Aku berusaha jugak nak tengok, tapi lagi malang CIMB yang beli 3 hall untuk tayang movie tu bawak sekuriti untuk kawal setiap hall, jadi kami yang tak terlibat ni tak dapat la nak tengok lama-lama. Aku dapat tengok skit ja, tak sampai 10 minit.

Apa pun, aku antara manusia pertama dapat tengok X-Men: Wolverine di donia nih!! Bangga nih!!

Everything has a price these days...

2009-04-27T13:40:00.001+08:00

After I opened my eyes this afternoon (ehem, awal nampak?) I quickly took my towel and headed straight for the bathroom (nak terkucil nih). When I went pass through living room, my mother stopped me with something I really don't wanna hear.

"Izuan, kasut hang kena curi dengan mat pit."

F*** whoever he is! I can't imagine that is also OK to steal since these guys really need cash to satisfy their own stupidity. Now I have to figure out what am I gonna wear to work. Have 3 hours to figure this s#!t...

Ah...takda mood lah!!

Keja takda gaji? Sukarelawan? Tak suka lawan la!

2009-04-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

Letih gila hari ni. Aku round hampir satu Penang cari bahan untuk projek tempat kerja aku. Yang lawaknya aku langsung tak dibayar (duit minyak pun takda beb) untuk buat menda-menda ni. Aku disuruh perah otak cari idea cemana nak naikkan GSC seperti decorate lawa-lawa tempat keja etc. Haih, nak naikkan kompeni tapi duit susah gila nak kluar. Aku ni dah la keja status part-time (gaji RM3.50 jek) pastu nak aku bagi effort melebihi gaji aku. Memangla tak adil aku tau, tapi satgi kalu aku berkira mau pulak depa blacklist aku. Tapi kalu aku ikut saja idea depa ni aku pulak yang rugi. Entahla, pening aku.

Partner aku yang sepatutnya join aku wat menda ni dah berenti, dapat keja best katanye. Aku pun tak tau. Yang pasti tinggal aku sesorang uruskan keja-keja yang tak abis tu. Aku rasa buat masa ni tak payah la berkira noo…aku pun keja situ tak lama, nak buat degree pulak bulan 6 nih. Mau jugak dekat sebulan lagi aku keja kat GSC. Bagila aku blah dengan rasa puas hati sebab aku dah improve-kan salah satu bahagian kat GSC tuh. Apa pun sekarang ni cuti macam tak cuti. Banyak koje nih yob! Bz saje gamaknye.

Manic Monday

2009-04-21T11:04:00.000+08:00

I woke up early today with nothing much to do. Tried go get back to sleep, but as always my head kept me awake with a lot of stuff such as the 5’s ideas (which work related stuff folks) and when the hell I’m going to update my MP3 collection. First thing first, I haven’t filled up my MARA application form. Hmm, too much they ask in one form, which looks more like investigation form rather than a study loan form.

Argh, Nisha (Cosmopoint employee) already called me a few hours ago to ask when I’m gonna pickup my offer letter and of course, she also asked about the MARA form. All I know I don’t wanna fill it now. No mood lah. What shall I do? I know, listen to MP3 lah!! How predictable…

It’s almost 1.30 pm now and yes, today it’s back to GSC. I’m praying everyday not to get cranky or crazy customers. But come to think of it, I kinda enjoy arguing with these types of customers. They are wrong (can’t they read cinema rules??) but still find way to claim they on the “innocent” side. Bullshit. I know if customers want to argue, I’m going to win. Just call my manager; they will also prove I’m right. By arguing when they are wrong, these idiots don’t realize they are humiliating themselves. Here’s a newsflash for you; SHUT THE HELL UP AND JUST FOLLOW THE RULES! Or perhaps they do know they are humiliated by themselves and enjoy doing it. Bravo idiots!

I’m proud to work in customer service field. It makes my skin thicker every single day. You want to shout? Sure, or how about cursing? Being sarcasm is really my favourite. It’s my language baby. You start, and then you better prepare for the “payback time”. Oh it’s hurt doesn’t it? Ouch!

In a few hours I’m gonna start my shift. Unlike most people, I like Monday. That’s when cranky customers mostly don’t exist. Less people mean fewer problems. Ah, I LIKE MONDAY!!

P/s: I just got a netbook yesterday…four figures and look good. Aye carumba!

Erm...apa aku nak jawab nih?!

2009-04-12T13:56:00.003+08:00

Semalam aku ada YM ngan kawan baik aku si Fatma Shada. Dengarnye dia baru balik Mid Valley, letih la beb. Tapi takpa la kot, nak YM ja pun, tak payah pakai kaki atau anggota badan yang lain untuk menaip. Si Fatma ni salah seorang pengikut AF dan memandangkan aku ni memang meluat AF, aku pun sindir la Fatma skit (skit je, kalu tak mau dia takmo kawan ngan aku dah).

Tapi Fatma pulak sindir aku dengan soalan yang agak pedih...

"Kenapa ye kalu pape je industri hiburan Malaysia hang anti sangat?"

Adus...aku dah agak soklan ni mesti terkeluar punya. Haha, macam la aku ni orang asing. Korang nak tau apa sebab aku? Well, ni jawapan aku...

"Bagi aku kalu nak meniru biarlah menepati standard rancangan original yang ditiru."

Aku ada sebab untuk tidak menyukai sesuatu. Kita manusia ada pilihan kan? Bagi aku kita rakyat Malaysia ni perlu ada standard sendiri untuk sesuatu. Kita tak boleh terima semua dari luar bulat-bulat. Dan meniru tu dah memang lumrah hidup. Korang penah tengok kan Sehati Berdansa? Rancangan tu dicedok dari Dancing With The Stars, keluaran US (dari mana lagi nak cedok kan?). Korang cuba bandingkan kualiti menari kita ngan diorang.

Kita punya Sehati Berdansa...

Diorang punya Dancing With The Stars...

Apa pendapat korang? Dah terang-terangan dah. Bagi aku senang ja, kalau diorang boleh, kenapa kita tak boleh? Apa sebab kita tak boleh buat yang bagus macam diorang? Itu ja soklan aku. Ada sesapa boleh jawab? Aku cukup tak suka bila kita meniru tapi tahap "boleh la tu" atau "jadila dari takda langsung". Baik tak payah buat kalu tak mampu buat yang terbaik.

Aku rasa kita boleh cipta sendiri rancangan kita, dari asyik cedok dari luar. Korang ingat Sinaran Pasport Kegemilangan? Bagi aku tu amat bagus. Format kita sendiri. Baru original beb.